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Recieved: 2002/11/07 18:35
Subject: [K-list] need for assistance
From: Angelmouser2
On 2002/11/07 18:35, Angelmouser2 posted thus to the K-list:
Hello! I am hoping for some insight on this problem I have. The Kundalini
is aggressively cleaning out my 2nd and third right chakra now. I am so sick
to my stomache and it is really taking a toll on me. The problem is I have
been trying to help release this block as I usually do so that the pains and
sickness go away. I am getting no where I usually will look inside the
chakra and see what the problem is I tried to do this last night and Dear God
I am suprised I am here in one peice today.
As I looked into it I saw darkness then in a spur of the moment Bam there
was red flames and more black and emotions like I can not explain I felt the
Kundalini angerly and very aggressively consume my body it was burning the
blockages. I jumped up becuase the extreme emotions made me scream and all I
could do is pray to God that the emotions would stop I sat in fetile position
holding myself for 5 hours shaking and praying that I could release the block
slower. The Kundalini consumed my body and I felt as though I would end up
in convulsions. The more I faced the fears to try to release them the more
intense the feelings became.
Usually I force myself to feel the emotions so that I can release them I am
getting fearless but this is much different when I feel these emotions it is
the kind that could make you go insane or I fear losing control. I have kids
to take care of so I can not lose control and I am not sure what to do these
blockages are making me feel sooo sick I still feel the emotion it is at the
edge of surfacing one look at my chakra and it will surface again. What am I
supposed to do I have Reiki'd it and worked with it but it is not helping I
am afraid the only way I will get it to release is to face it. What will
happen to me if I face it I once again can not tell you all how severe this
emotion was I believe it was a worse panic than being attacked. I am not a
quiter and this seems to be the worst block I have left each time I have
chaotic rises this is the worst obstical and I have avoided it too many
times. I think Goddess is losing her patience.
As I praying and shaking asking Goddess to let the fear go there was many
beams of white light entering my body and my guide was standing over me but I
really believe I will have to have another physical being to help me if I
release it I dont know what it will make me want to do I wanted to kill
myself in that split second that I let the peak of the emotion surface.
Anyone please help if you have had experience in this or could help. The
worst of it seems to be in the 2nd chakra.
Love and Light,
Kristy
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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