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Recieved: 2002/11/06 11:26
Subject: [K-list] Pre-Fatherhood Musings
From: Lbra782595
On 2002/11/06 11:26, Lbra782595 posted thus to the K-list:
(With only a few dozen hours remaining before the arrival of his first child,
Jason smiles, scratches his head and puts on his "ranting hat")
So.............
If the universe is truly a mirror of our own selves, metaphorically
reflecting back to us what is taking place in our own psyches, and the whole
of physical universe is merely a shared co-creation of the multiple facets of
the one true consciousness, our own unique natures shared communally, what is
it that is being born within me that is reflected with the birth of a new
life into this material existence.
For almost a year now I have been following the path of Kriya Yoga. Profound
changes in attitude have occurred in me, yet I am concerned that "the sins of
the father are visited on the children". My life has been far from a
pristene spiritual existence. All my fears, the injustices that I have
committed to others over the course of my life; will the child be afflicted
by my previous insensativities? It' not guilt I am speaking of, but karma.
Is she come as retribution for 30-something years of living a life that
lacked awareness? Or as chance to make up for opportunities missed? Like
Dicken's "Ghost of Christmas Past" will she take me ungently by the hand and
make me weep bitterly that I have not been a better human being, showing me
the cause and effect of my "so-called Life" that has led me to my current
state of affairs?
Or is this a marker; a milestone if you will, saying, "Here, look, the
required understanding took place on this spot in your evolution. The path
forks here. Which way will you choose?"
Freud: "Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar".
Nah.
"Roll with the Changes". Start by counting blessings.
The child's mother and I are pretty good health. We are not rich by any
stretch of imagination, but we are certainly not going to starve or be
without shelter. Both of our families are overjoyed at the prospect of being
grandparents, aunts, uncles, etc.
"Hang on, Help is on the way"
So, barring any flukes, her DNA codes should be good.
I had no "say-so" about her soul"
What's left?..............Environment.
Did I say, "The path forks here. Which way will I choose?"?
These are my choices: I will do my utmost to teach her to be an
independantly thinking person--(ultimately) to rely on her own experiences
rather then always just taking someone else's word for it. To give her a
safe, nuturing, Loving environment in which to develop.(duh) To show by
EXAMPLE that Love is stronger than fear. (anybody see "Monsters Inc." ?)
All I can do is give her the tools. The life she builds with them is up to
her. She has her own karma to deal with so I can't do it ALL for her.
Will she grow up to be the next Mother Theresa or Mahatma Ghandi? Or the
next Adolf Hitler? The next Neil Armstrong? Bill Gates? Guatama Buddha? Or
will I see her someday on street corner with a sign that says "Please help.
God Bless" Is it her face on the Statue of Liberty?
"All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of
your heart, and in that knowlege become a fragment of Life's heart."
................................................................Gibran
"Anyone who receives not the Kingdom of Heaven as a little child shall in no
wise enter therein."
.....................................................Jesus of Nazareth
"as a little child" ........ I think this refers more to the mental state of
the receiver rather than actual age of the receiver.
"Never doubt the value of being able to think like a child"
Heheh, that one is mine.
So..................
What is this glory falling like a star into my trembling hands?
I suppose, ultimately, the choice is/is not mine.
"........And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, "Speak to us of
children"
And he said, "Your children are not your children. They are the sons and
daughters of Life's longing for itself.
"They come through you, but not from you."
"You may give them your love, but not your thoughts, for they have their own
thoughts.
"You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For
life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
"You are the bows from which your children, as living arrows, are sent forth.
The Archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you
with His strength that His arrows may go swift and far.
'Let your bending in the Archer's hand be for gladness; For even as He loves
the arrow that flies, so he loves the bow that is stable."
..............................................Gibran
Bend Me! I shall not break!
The waiting is nearly over. What have we conceived in the little place of
our thoughts? And what colors the easel of the future shall hold will not be
chosen consciously by us, but rather by the quality of Love we give to the
inheritors of the Earth.
What colors indeed. :^) I think we can scarce imagine.
LOL!
Jason B
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