To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/11/06 06:49
Subject: [K-list] First Meditation
From: HSV & AAL

I am going to speak a little chaotic-ly as thoughts come to
my mind. Hope this isn't too strange.

I know something now. I... I feel something now. I don't
feel the tingling this morning, but I'm still fairly calm.
Tried meditating before, always fell asleep. Used the
grounding page last night for the first time. Actually
felt myself go deeper, below the "floor", below where I
thought calm existed before.

At the beginning, was upset that I couldn't feel the warmth
on my head... tried for a long time. Finally gave up and
moved onward. Didn't finish concentrating on the entire
process, but my feet and fingers tingled anyway. Am I
really grounded since all I did was finish reading it, and
not closing my eyes and focusing on it? I must be, have
been, I didn't feel the anxiety anywhere. I was so calm.
Even later when I would feel anxiety knocking, it was so
easy to deny it. Must have been grounded... it was so
glorious.

Read through the Heart Voice at bottom of grounding page.
Began to try, then allowed self doubt to rule. Thought I
may have heard a voice, but it was so quiet, I couldn't
hear. Maybe I wasn't fully grounded. Went away to try
again later... maybe today.

This morning. Still calmer than normal. Much easier to
breathe and exhale most of the negative. Turned on the TV
and heard the terrible news. Only the fourth time since
Abe Lincoln, the same party in all 3 seats of power. All
I can think is "we're screwed." I must not be grounded
anymore because thoughts of future and money invade. They
are not overwhelming as usual, but present.

Louder in my mind, I wish I had learned to meditate years
ago. Maybe I wasn't ready, but who couldn't be ready for
something this wonderful?

Thank you all for being there for me, even if you've never
addressed me. I feel the energy, even though it is a bit
obscured.

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