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Recieved: 2002/11/05 15:34
Subject: [K-list] Healing with Angelique
From: Lori Worley
On 2002/11/05 15:34, Lori Worley posted thus to the K-list:
To fellow list members
I wanted to share with you a further healing experience with Angelique.
Most of you have already witnessed the first stage of that a few weeks ago,
when I experienced a major clearing and ignition of the solar plexus. Last
week we spent some time on the phone in a healing session, when Angelique
helped me:
- clear blockages and entities
- retrieve my soul and find my wings (v. exciting!)
- heal my Inner Child
- understand how to work with and maintain my energy.
I was also initiated into Tummo Fire Reiki.
This is my progress report a week after the session, including some feedback
from Angelique. I welcome any questions, so please ask.
I must say that today I still feel joyful, but also quite detached
emotionally. That's not to say that I don't feel emotions - they simply
don't overwhelm me, and I can and do surrender them. That's something new
and another enormously beneficial effect of the process for me.
I hope you enjoy the story so far.
Lori
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Hi Angelique
Just wanted to send you a quick note about what's been happening for me
since our session. I'm not sure my mind can really make sense of it just
yet, which is why I haven't written anything to the group until now. I am
sending you my thoughts, which seem a bit disorganised to me - perhaps
that's how they are meant to be.
They do not seem disorganized to me... just moving from moment to moment. The first thing I noticed on Wednesday was how I felt - I felt like a
hologram. I walked down the street and felt the wind and the rain pass
through me. I felt joyful, and wonderfully clear. The boundary of my body
felt quite insignificant, nonexistent even.
Beautiful. On Thursday morning while on the train to work, I decided to play
invisible, and it seemed to work. People looked past me, almost as if they
were looking through me. That evening I played alluring, and foxy men hung
around me on the Tube (this was quite funny as I was dressed like a farm
hand, ie not very glamorous). On Friday morning I decided to play
repulsive, but I could only keep this up for about 5 minutes. Each time
this happened spontaneously. It was like I was trying on new clothes.
Saturday Andy and I went out to lunch, and we shared a bottle of wine,
then went to a party where I had a smoke. This is important as I've been
dropping all the ways of being I've adopted since I've set foot on a
spiritual path. I've started to eat meat again, I've started to drink wine
and beer on occasion, I have the odd smoke, I tell people what I think. I
suppose this is what my shadow was trying to tell me. There is definitely a
part of me that wants to be good and pure, eating the right things, being
nice and kind and holy, and there's the side of me that likes to party,
enjoys being naughty, likes the taste of meat, is insensitive, enjoys being
sadistic, etc etc. So, I've been contemplating this a lot and realising
that at the moment I'm holding the tension between the opposites, expressing
all sides of myself in some fashion and yet being a slave to none. This
feels pretty important.
Yes! Goddess doesn't judge... :) Allow yourself the freedom to be, who
you are, in the now... The party exhausted me, though. I slept most of the day on Sunday, and
fell sound asleep on the sofa last night at 8:30, sleeping through to 8:00
this morning.
I said you would need extra sleep this week... :) Yesterday and today I've noticed the heat increasing markedly in my body,
particularly at the chakra points in my trunk and in my hands. On Wednesday
night while falling off to sleep I saw red-yellow flames - I assume that was
the Tummo.
The tummo itself is clear light but sometimes the stuff burning makes
colours. I've been thinking about the young Lori on my back. I wondered if she
blocked the spreading of my wings. I often heard a voice in my head telling
me how I can't afford to screw up because I'd look foolish. The voice came
from my right shoulder, and it was incredibly judgmental of me and of
others. I also wonder if she was choking back words, as I feel a sense of
relaxation at my throat (along with my back and my belly). Now that I've
discovered I have wings, I have been really feeling, flexing and spreading
them when possible.
Don't they feel beautiful? :) I was also so excited, almost tearful to discover, see and feel my soul.
yessssssssssss...... so it is. Goddess did it... :) It is always so
miraculous to me, to say the simple words of soul retrieval and have that
beauty so immediately present. Nothing like it. The soul is.... words fail.
:) I've been experimenting with it by placing it in different chakras. I've
been keeping it in the solar plexus as it seems to rest naturally there, but
I also really like how I feel when it's in the sacral chakra. I feel very
alive and pregnant with possibility there.
Muktananda says the highest attainment is to live from the second chakra,
when all chakras are cleared. Mine rests naturally in my solar plexus too,
keeps me mindful of karma and dharma, boundaries... Since our session, I've continued to ground myself, and I've become much
more aware of my own energy. If I feel something doesn't serve me, I hand
it over to Goddess. I find myself handing over things to Goddess several
times a day. This could be a thought, a sensation, an entity. About three
days after the session I noticed that an entity had already attached itself
to my brand-new root chakra, so I cleared it (I was pissed off, but I got
rid of it). I've also begun to bless my food and drink, and I've been
opening the chakra above the heart so that my energy is replenished (when I
remember!). I notice that I eat now with much more awareness than ever
before, thanking Goddess and the animal (if the meal contains animal flesh).
Good! :) The words that encapsulate my experience so far are choice,
experimentation, wholeness, freedom, clarity. Today I received a Bowen
session, and I've never felt the energy so clearly in my body. It was
moving at such a high rate that I thought I was going to jump off the
treatment couch. I feel that the healing session with you was also a
teaching session, and I felt you gave me the tools to go away and take care
of myself.
Yes, that is how I work. I like to empower people in that way, instead
of them becoming dependent on me. I don't yet have your vision, but I can feel energy strongly, and perhaps
that's good enough for the moment.
Sure! Some see, some feel, some hear... just different modalities.
Probably the flames you saw, were the third eye burning clean, so your
vision will improve.
When working, I use a combination of all three. Some stuff I feel,
empathy. Some stuff I see, and I also hear the heart advising what to do. I feel that the process is going to go on and on, so I may send you a
further update. It's been big - I'm not sure I'm fully aware of just how
big yet.
I love to read progress reports! Forward this to the list if you feel...
Cheers
Lori
Blessings!
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