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Recieved: 2002/11/03 20:58
Subject: [K-list] Sebastian the Dau Tao
From: Edjason
On 2002/11/03 20:58, Edjason posted thus to the K-list:
>I open my eyes. Sebastian is gone. What happened? I still have two legs. I
>feel the back of my bottom. Ouch! Why does MY bottom hurt? Ariel is gone.
Ariel was never there - imagination
is a wonderful place to have Nothing Happen . . .>The decision has been made for me. But then I knew that all along, didn't I?
[shrug]>My fantasy tale is over. Any chance I had for release is gone now. All that
>is left now is Me, Joyce. I can no longer hide. The waters have stopped
>swirling. There is stillness around me. It is time to come out now. I slip
>off of the Rock. It is time to swim to shore.
You write it/right it as you will . . .>My mind is full with self reproach as I slowly swim to the beach before me.
>I used Ariel to appear to Sebastian in a form that I thought he would find
>pleasing. I thought that would keep her safe. I was wrong. I was afraid to
LOL
Wrong? Right?
All imagination
Safe?
Dangerous?
Pleasing?
All imagination . . .>go to him as Joyce. She was afraid of him. He is not only Crusty. He is also
>Crass. He is the Claw. So Ariel, forgive me. I hid behind you. Look what
>happened. Why did he have to eat you? Why could he not send you back into
>the Deep, like you asked? He did not have to eat you. Or did he?
[shrug]
Crass
Claw
Mermaid munching
gods and and godesses
ALL - one and all - imagined . . .
Fear?
Imagined.
Hiding?
Imagined.>Just as it is time for me to stay here and stand on my own two feet now
>without tails or tales, maybe it was time for you to go to your place in
>Heaven. Maybe he had to eat you to free you. Maybe you had to die in form so
>you could enter in to your new Life. I will miss you, Ariel. You were
>courageous. You defied Neptune for the sake of love. You defied Neptune and
>asked him to discharge his hatred of humans. And in your defiance, there was
>grace, not disobedience.
Yawn . . .
You are a nice person
I like the style you have adopted.
You can if it pleases you
involve me in a fantasy of your
making . . .
Just remember every god from
Neptune to Venus
are as wonderful/relevant/irreverent
as we make them
Grace comes with Power
and vice versa if we have any grace.
How, why and at what level these qualities exist
is dependent on . . .
us.>Self doubt...How can I possibly do it? My children. My business. My life.
>Must I sacrifice everything? The vise tightens more. What do I do? You
>must place your Self in the hands of God.
>
>I am called back to the now. My instructions...The Claw? You want me to go
>back to the Claw? Look what he did to Ariel. Go back. I will do whatever
>you tell me to do...
The claw . . .
why not the tale?
Who is clawed?
Whose tale is chomped?
and whose imagination
is running her reality?
Mine? Of course mine.
Yours? Of course yours . . .>Who ARE you, Sebastian the Dauphin? What do you have to do with me? What do
>I have to do with you?
Nothing
but words . . .>And so I come to you now without tales. I come to you as Joyce. I come to
>you with the desire to listen. You took Ariel away. I will not give you
>Lady Joyce. For it is I who must stand on my own feet and face the angry
>demons. It is I who must carry the shield against the daggers of hate. It is
>I who must speak the message of love. It is I who must face the 70% of the
>American people who support the death penalty. It is I who must ask them to
>open their hearts and find mercy. It is I who must tell them in a way that
>they can understand....capital punishment is a violation of the Law of the
>Mirror.
Don't kid yourself
the mission is created by your higher self (Lady Neptune
or whoever you might care to pretend)
You can not even face an imaginary demonic Lobster self
and yet expect to take on 70% of USA?
Ego - or WHAT?>And so I come to you now for support. For my bliss is tempered with pain.
You will have to steal yourself
away from feeling
pain is not bliss
and bliss is not a pain . . .
I am supporting you
in ways your imagination will
run around until deadened to distractions.
You have set yourself high ideals
and you have asked for help
HOWEVER you must accept
gifts in the form they are offered
NOT according to your limitations
but to my limited capacity of giving . . .
Make good of my bad and . . .
who gains?
Everyone?>I had to know from whence you came.
Whence?
[wince]
My Lady does talk
as if a fish still
methinks . . .
If you do not integrate
subconscious and reality
you will end up 'kundalinilly Challanged'
- or mad - much the same thing
for many people . . .>I am no longer the mermaid. I am Joyce. I place my Self into your Claws.
Then as now you are completely and absolutely safe.>I give up, Sebastian. I give up, Claw. I will not hide from you. I will try
>not to hide from you. I will try to listen.
>I am now in your hands.
>
>In Surrender,
>
>Joyce
:-)
You show me more respect then I deserve.
Your fate is in your own hands.
Just be as kind and patient and
fearless as you are becoming ever more
and . . .
All is Well . . .
That ends well . . .
Lobster (as eaten by mermaids)
===============
Who speaks the sound of an echo?
Who paints the image in a mirror?
Where are the spectacles in a dream?
Nowhere at all -- that's the nature of mind!
- Tantric Buddhist Women's Songs, 8th - 11th c.
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PS. This may have been a private post
either way I am posting it publically
for which I have been sanctioned to do . . .
Would you give someone such power
Pah!
It is in your power to do so
or not . . .
. . . just words . . .
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