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Recieved: 2002/11/03 18:11
Subject: [K-list] Sebastian the Dauphin...Who are you?
From: Lady Joyce
On 2002/11/03 18:11, Lady Joyce posted thus to the K-list:
I open my eyes. Sebastian is gone. What happened? I still have two legs. I
feel the back of my bottom. Ouch! Why does MY bottom hurt? Ariel is gone.
The decision has been made for me. But then I knew that all along, didn't I?
My fantasy tale is over. Any chance I had for release is gone now. All that
is left now is Me, Joyce. I can no longer hide. The waters have stopped
swirling. There is stillness around me. It is time to come out now. I slip
off of the Rock. It is time to swim to shore.
My mind is full with self reproach as I slowly swim to the beach before me.
I used Ariel to appear to Sebastian in a form that I thought he would find
pleasing. I thought that would keep her safe. I was wrong. I was afraid to
go to him as Joyce. She was afraid of him. He is not only Crusty. He is also
Crass. He is the Claw. So Ariel, forgive me. I hid behind you. Look what
happened. Why did he have to eat you? Why could he not send you back into
the Deep, like you asked? He did not have to eat you. Or did he?
Just as it is time for me to stay here and stand on my own two feet now
without tails or tales, maybe it was time for you to go to your place in
Heaven. Maybe he had to eat you to free you. Maybe you had to die in form so
you could enter in to your new Life. I will miss you, Ariel. You were
courageous. You defied Neptune for the sake of love. You defied Neptune and
asked him to discharge his hatred of humans. And in your defiance, there was
grace, not disobedience.
Because of your courage, Neptune looked into his heart and found love. And,
in the end, he gave you your legs so you could dance with your
Beloved.....ah, finally. I can stand in the water now. I am so tired. I
walk to the end of the now silent surf. I fall to the sand and crawl away
from the edge of the water to respite.
As I sit on the beach, surrounded by water and sand on all sides, I am not
sure where I go next. I look out at the Rock. It is empty. I am so tired.
I must rest now. I lay down in the sand. You know, Ariel, Crusty may have ea
ten you. But, in our tale, it was your mother, Salacia, who had his cousin
for dinner and wore the legs as trophies in her crown. And Neptune is
Poseidon. And you are Goddess..........
I open my eyes and look up. It is still light around me. I must have fallen
asleep. I am not sure where I am. I just know I am waiting. Waiting to be
told what to do. You must place your Self in the hands of God. My chest is
crushed with the vise of my Fear. I am remembering now what is asked of me.
It was only a few days ago that I heard these words. As I asked my Self in
Self doubt...How can I possibly do it? My children. My business. My life.
Must I sacrifice everything? The vise tightens more. What do I do? You
must place your Self in the hands of God.
I am called back to the now. My instructions...The Claw? You want me to go
back to the Claw? Look what he did to Ariel. Go back. I will do whatever
you tell me to do...
Dear Sebastian:
You wrote:
:-)
Of course it is me :-)
Who ARE you, Sebastian the Dauphin? What do you have to do with me? What do
I have to do with you?
:-)
I even re-member what
I have forgotten
If you can listen
you can stand with or without tales
And so I come to you now without tales. I come to you as Joyce. I come to
you with the desire to listen. You took Ariel away. I will not give you
Lady Joyce. For it is I who must stand on my own feet and face the angry
demons. It is I who must carry the shield against the daggers of hate. It is
I who must speak the message of love. It is I who must face the 70% of the
American people who support the death penalty. It is I who must ask them to
open their hearts and find mercy. It is I who must tell them in a way that
they can understand....capital punishment is a violation of the Law of the
Mirror.
:-)
Bliss and Rock eh?
Us Shellfish types remain
under the rock, supporting those
who feel Bliss is Ignorance
For Lobster is an anagram of
Bolster - to support.
And so I come to you now for support. For my bliss is tempered with pain.
:-)
LOL
Is there no bliss in suffering humanity?
The Deep comes up to the shallow . . .
You thrill seeking mermaids expect
me to throw you a fish [red herring perhaps?]
I had to know from whence you came.
:-)
Believe it.
Mermaids dead or alive
are food for this crustacean . . .
I am no longer the mermaid. I am Joyce. I place my Self into your Claws.
:-)
>ABSORPTION OF THE FIRE BUDDHA
>
>As you feel/experience the rising of Anger
>Intensify it. Feel it even stronger as a
>Boddhisattva in the Hell Realms
>expansively radiating flames of compassionate
>anger to all the demons that feed on this
>energy.
>
>Then being aware of the breath becoming
>gentler, bring the experience into a
>solid Vajra Diamond in ones Hara (stomach area)
>
>You are effectively making anger
>harder and harder
>easily becoming a Diamond
>(one of the legendary 3 Jewels of Buddhism :-)
I will research this. On the subject of Gratitude, when I asked if there was
a form of payment that does not diminish the purity of the giving...you
wrote...
:-)
Of course
Giving Up!
I give up, Sebastian. I give up, Claw. I will not hide from you. I will try
not to hide from you. I will try to listen.
I am now in your hands.
In Surrender,
Joyce
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