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Recieved: 2002/11/03 11:34
Subject: [K-list] (unknown)
From: cincindee
On 2002/11/03 11:34, cincindee posted thus to the K-list:
The past five years or so my life has experienced many changes
including: divorce, major surgery, losing not just a job but a
career, the lawsuit that followed, an incident with a quiji board, a
bad relationship, two babies at age 39, selling the family home, a
child graduating high school, another child graduating college, a
grandchild, and the death of grandchilds mother, who not only lived
with us but was a daughter to our family.
I also changed whether it is due to one experience or all of them I
am not sure. I knew she would die, I felt it. She was 18, healthy
and truly happy but I only saw her as "tragic". I did what I could
to prevent this happening even insisting she have a routine checkup
which she easily passed. She died two weeks later and with the
death of our beloved daughter I cried tears that truly came from my
heart, my soul. Then came a changing point where it actually felt
as if gates inside of me were opened. After that, my senses were
raw, sensitive, exposed. I have always been a precognitive and lucid
dreamer but nothing compared to what it became, I also began to go
into trances and have OBE's, I started having visions, I started
hearing what sounded like bees buzzing, I began to feel electricity
under my feet and also would zap whoever or whatever I touched, my
bed would shake or vibrate on its own (friends would comment on it
to me), I heard voices and saw spirits(?) when no one was there
(friends heard and saw them also, I quickly learned to leave the
first comments about such incidents to them), my left leg or arm
would go numb, I would be too hot to touch or to be next to, and for
a time I had an inner peace and a knowing or understanding of
everything, it all being either black or white, no gray, just right
or wrong. There is much more but I am sure this is enough to read. I
am not nuts nor am I crazy. I do not suffer from any type of
psychosis although others have thought me all of the above at times,
including those friends who have heard and have seen right along
with me. I do know that I need help and am hoping for any answers to
what is happening and what to do
Thank you for your time and for any assistance or guidance offered.
cincindee
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