To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/10/23 18:24
Subject: [K-list] Re: Quickly mood poll
From: Lisayers
On 2002/10/23 18:24, Lisayers posted thus to the K-list:
most of the time it seems I am somewhere inbetween, lately that is, for
about the past month or so now.
before that I was a roller-coaster ridin' K chick, lol! Very seldom, if
ever in the inbetween, usually either very low or very anxious.nervous
over just about EVERYTHING.
It is interesting I noticed just now when I was reading the others
responses on that link for this past poll, how many made reference to
"birthing."
I recall several years ago back when I had that sudden rush of intense
need for learning and reading about spiritual and religious teaching the
like, yes even some BIG no-no "Mystical" text/books for Christians, lol.
I had a dream about my being in front of our little local library and I
suddenly went down to the ground srting like I am feeling I am having a
baby, yet no belly or birth pains, and this young girl walking by rushes
over to ask me what's wrong and then I think she said she would go to
get help for me, and the next thing I know, it was like I blinked, and
the next second I am lying on the ground there in front of the library
still but now am with this BIG fat baby in my arms! lol! It looked just
like those classical paintings depict baby Jesus and the Cherbums!
I was about to start freaking and it somehow calmed me down and
communicated to me that "Everything was going to be fine" or all would
work out fine, just as it is supposed to." I can't remember anymore, it
was one or the other though...maybe both!?
Soon thereafter things went into a brief upswing followed immediately
therafter by a really bad low-low which last for a period of several
years.
Things happen in life to depress, disappoint, and shake us up, all of
those things, or most occurred during this period and at the end of the
final "black period" I had some great dark poetry and some odd Xmas pics
of me wearing black ATnospam Xmass to show for it all.
:)
Now I am enjoying something akin to numbness but not really numb. I was,
just previous to this feeling, feeling very numb, that is how I now know
it is not numbness. Maybe this is PEACE?
Could it be?
I never felt that before, never felt this way before except maybe I
think I recall vaguely something close to it when I was about 4-5 yrs of
age. Whatever it is I prefer it to the others. :)
Lisa (uswrite)
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