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Recieved: 2002/10/20 01:44
Subject: [K-list] Universal Energy / Cosmic Energy (Session report)
From: Rich
On 2002/10/20 01:44, Rich posted thus to the K-list:
Well I am happy about the energy :)
It began with unconditional love of me, which felt wonderful even though
I had a headache. I wasn't sure where to rest, in my heart or above my
crown so moved between the two places quite a bit.
Eventually blockages started to come up and they allowed me to send them
their way. Each time they resolved it through their loving heart energy
so it disintegrated or it came back with some insight to help me to let
go.
After a while most of my system was very clear. I felt very light and
was buzzing with energy through my whole system. I was in a dream like
state.
At this point, they worked on my chakras from the base up. Each one blew
quite a bit beyond the physical body. Energy easily moved up my spine
and it felt so blissful. Trusting in the work and the level of energy
also required some work. I had to also give up my fear of large amounts
of energy which was a little weird but very pleasing :)
Eventually we hit on a big blockage to do with loss. It's been a bit of
a theme for me for a while. This became the major work for the rest of
the time. When we loose a lot it's easy to not value oneself and say 'OK
I've lost this much, here I don't care anymore just take the rest of
me'. It's a fairly unpleasant place to be as you don't have the resource
to clear this stuff yourself as you have given the part of you that
could mend it away also.
Well this was an underlying theme for me for many a year to the point
that it was drowned and buried a long way down.
So we worked on this - I kept giving them the bits into their vast
stream of unconditional love. There was never any judgement or desire on
their part except to give unconditional love. This was except for when I
let them see I had a bit of a hangover. This irritated them a bit but it
did not take them long to understand and see through the ego reasons and
let go of their judgement and go back to where they were. The speed and
way they work was amazing.
So worked on my current feelings and being entangled with someone over
loss, someone who can't let go and for some reason has got entangled
with me. I realised this very basic thing that when involving with
another's feelings I only get stuck on it when it also clashes with my
own similar feelings. So it can really wear me down if I'm not mindful
and always remember that I should look within first to find where I have
that feeling before I can let go for the other.
So the insight was on when I had my tonsills out as a young child. I've
gone through this many times already in the past but I still could not
clear it 100%. The loss was so significant to me at the time that I
wouldn't even let anyone get close to me in my worldly relationships as
I thought they were going to go for my jugular. Never ceases to amaze me
how deep and lasting these things can go.
Needless to say this has caused significant tension in relationships
when people do want to get close to me :)
So followed that back to where I was a thief in a past life and received
a lot of judgement to do with loss. I'd already handled on this before
to do with feelings of shame and how it came to be. Even being a thief
can be perfection in the eyes of goddess. It's all part of the play of
life.
They gave me a loving insight that loss is good as it helps people let
go of their attachments and become who they are more. To remember that
it's all just a dream (an illusion) in the first place. Don't get stuck
in the game.
Realised that we never really loose anything as we are and have it all
anyway. We just tune into a tiny convoluted pocked of consciousness
instead of the greater whole and make ourselves feel loss. In fact Loss
is a creation in it's own right. We choose to feel this way. So in summary I can certainly recommend the work of the people calling
themselves 'Cosmic Energy'. Their marketing is well compiled to the
point that I thought it might be a commercial activity. But what I've
experienced is the work of unconditional love and clean energy work
without ulterior desire.
After the session I tried to connect with the one who finished it. I
wanted to know how they did such clean and pure healing. I realised
straight away I had violated his space which was a mistake on my part. I
kept saying how sorry I was but it took a little while for the person to
find the love also in what I'd done, so they could forgive me. After
they placed a shield up so that I could not intrude on them. So if I try
to connect back this shield was in the way which had no resistance. But
was like a heart shield just to say it's okay to stop here. Like being
in a temple.
Many thanks for the very pleasant and peace-giving session.
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