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Recieved: 2002/10/16 21:34
Subject: [K-list] There is no Kundalini
From: Soitpp
On 2002/10/16 21:34, Soitpp posted thus to the K-list:
There is no Kundalini. The imagination is powerful to decieve the mind. We
are deluded into thinking we are having a transcendant experience. But that
is the nature of transcendance. We believe we are working through a process.
But there is no process. While the process is as plain as day. It is easy to
become deluded into believing that we are "progressing" while the belief of
progression itself is born from the ego-mind. Quintessential self is
everything. It is everything because it is both the here and the later.
Before time existed in our minds, as an infant, there was no more a "now"
than there would be a "then". I remember very well the exact moment that the
thoughtform of hard time was born in my consciuosness. I didn't like it at
all, to say the least, and tried my best to avoid it although knowing somehow
it's integration was somehow inevitable. I can remember arguing in my mind,
with my parents, although not knowing how to explain it, that this idea of
"time" was ludicrous and unnecessary and so much weight to have added on
life. That is where I am returning to. However with an adult mind to boot. I
am returning to no-time. I have wreaked havoc on myself prying with Kundalini
concepts. Thinking I have come along in my progress. And that I must be
"more" of something.. or "less" of something else. Paying close attention the
"power" I am exerting, or the amount of "surrender". But I decieved myself in
the process. Because of one key point. In my delusion I had virtually
forgotten what true "surrender" even meant.. because I had forgotten myself.
Essentially, or quintessentially, the self that existed as I was as an
infant. They say children are close to God, and I believe this. But it is
easy to admendum what it is to be "a child". I won't forgoe with any rules
and regulations. Those are for the individuals path. But I warn those who
forget that childhood was a time of innocence. And remember well the
anticedants that lead us from childhood into adulthood. There is a second
birth. And an ego-death. It's different for everyone. The rules I placed on
myself regarding my path were tremendous. Quite difficult for one who expects
to walk among serpents and dance among hot coals. But there I was indeed
bludgeoning myself with impossible heights and lows to encounter,.. having
accepted this is what "Kundalini" was. Indeed, one who is one with God does
walk among serpents and dance among fire. But blinded by the light, we find
ourselves lacking at every step, and slowly descending into a place of
impossibility. We judge ourselves at every corner, every step, because we are
not enough.. and we worry for our namesake, our very lives. But then we
should know that Kundalini desires us to leave our lives. To throw of
mortality. The crunch is quite unbearable, to live, without life, for a
purpose, we cannot see. We see "masters" abound us. Foreign personalities we
doubt ourselves in their names. They may have mastered their place in the
universe, but we have not. We forget ourselves. We throw ourselves to the
wolves, if the wolves have teeth. We have forgotten what it is to be an
infant. To be free of worry, doubt, and horror. But Kundalini demands a
spirit capable of embracing entire tribes. Brothers and sisters who are
listening. There is no possible way of embracing such things without
spiritual guidance and a commitment to the self. Not the ego self. But the
quintessential divine angel within us. Had I forgotten permanently who I was.
I would have lead myself down a black path of woe and blamed myself entirely
in the end believing I was simply not enough as I was. Trying, in vain, to
force a rabbit to be a wolf. There is a path to self. But it is through self
and through self alone. We cannot be blinded by the light and allow illusions
to destroy us. Each of us must stand alone. To be alone one must be honest.
Sincere. and know him/herself. Never let another tell you who you are. If
they speak to be so. They must be ignorant themselves. That is the challenge
of all who know themselves while others do not. To doubt ourselves is to
believe another over ourself. We know who we are. We were born knowing who we
are. And it will never leave us. God does not leave us. We and God are One.
And God does not create anything ugly out of itself. Believe in yourself.
Believe in your dreams. And let your surrender, to yourself, be your Guide.
And Kundalini will dissappear. There is no Kundalini. There is only you.
There is only self.
Peace in the Light,
Aaron
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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