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Recieved: 2002/10/14 09:34
Subject: [K-list] Lymph Nodes, fears and bastards...
From: J.E.M.
On 2002/10/14 09:34, J.E.M. posted thus to the K-list:
Hi there Jason,
You're not alone and what you're going through is normal. We've all been
through or geoing through pretty much the same.
From my experience I can say that I believe that the fears you wake up
with and that you believe are negative (perhaps cause you judge them as
being negative...?) are simply fears emerging from the source of all
fears which is the fear of fearing. There is a way out: once you believe
that your fears are simply generated by yourself and nothing else and
that however, they are not part of you nor do they belong to you or even
more importantly that you are not responsible for them (never ever leave
any place in yourself for guilt), then you will be able to let them go
easily every time. So, as one arises, the ticket is then to observe the
fear as it emerges and look at it as you would realize the above, just
let it go by visualizing it flying away like a baloon would disappear in
the sky for example, or your comparison of cleaning the cobwebs away. I
believe it is more efficient to give ourselves tools of a positive
reinforcement nature and by this way be more generous, kind and patient
with ourselves. I prefer explaining things by using an inference, an
example that is clear and simple and that everyone can relate to easily
to explain a point of view.
About the Lymph Nodes, I ain't no doctor (and I would recommend that you
see one anyhoo) but I have for many years gotten on many many occasions
those little lumps that apear along the lymph vessel (which I believe
runs throughout the whole body). Mine would generally appear in the back
of my neck along the sides making the whole area swell up, and they
disappear as quickly as they come. I have found that they can be
somewhat painful or sensitive at least when they would apear,
accompanied by the fever as well. My doctor ignored this for so many
years... Then I was finally told by someone that it would be a sign or
result of the you body being in the process of releasing toxins. It's as
if the body when releasing toxins of any nature and for any reason (it
could be even while fighting a cold) feels a little sick for a while,
while it processes these toxins. I must say I never tried the popping
and puking thing though, so can't say nothing there...
Where the night time paranoia is concerned, this is something that I had
to deal with in the midst of all this since I was a child. At one point,
I had the great surprise of finding a way to release this when
practicing some sort of soft yoga at home. It's essentially through
concentrating on the breathing that this happened. This has even allowed
me to quickly fall asleep like a baby during periods of insomnia. About
the screwing around, the only way any bastard can screw with anyone's
mind, really, to my opinion is that some people are just poor old clever
manipulators, and don't worry, it will be shown to you concretely if any
kind of activity of this nature is going on cause they have a need to
show themselves. But perhaps what is going on in your case is more like
you're picking up many things around you, it's part of what being a
channel is. And when you're picking up new and unknown vibes they can
feel funny and weird. And when getting used to this, feeling at times
that someone else is in your head is normal. Feeling the weird sensation
of being separated from our body is something that comes at the
beginning of a strong emergence of the soul within the body so it takes
a certain period to adapt to this new feeling, almost as is you are
going again through the odd feeling years when you're body is growing
from one of a child to one of an adult. You'll get used to all this, I'm
sure of it. Someone told me once that people like us must learn how to
install ourselves a little on-off switch in our mind cause we're
receptors of waves that come in like on the AM radio waves where all the
stations cross and mix, it can most certainly feel crazy and
overwhelming at times. Back when I was experimenting with the
channeling, after simply having been in contact with some entity that
was helping someone around me, I was stuck with the impression of having
a beard and his Irish accent for a while!!! So ho do ya install that
%&*! little switch anyway you may ask? Well my friend, it may not seem
as simple at first but it's simply by visualizing it. On the long run,
the visualisation strengthens. I would also suggest while I'm at it that
you also look into installing, again through visualisation, a bubble of
white light around you (give yourself at least a few feet) that will
help you feel protected and bring you a sense of peace.
I wish you strength and courage throughout your journey and Happy cobweb
cleaning! And if it can be of any help, talk to me!!!
Peace, Love and Light in All,
Julie-------y.lEAA/MVfIAA/AtTslB/TM
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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