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Recieved: 2002/09/26 19:36
Subject: Re: [K-list] Re: Ken's Post and my intro to the group.
From: Druout
On 2002/09/26 19:36, Druout posted thus to the K-list:
This was obviously meant for the whole list!
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Love, Hillary
Subj: Re: [K-list] Re: Ken's Post and my intro to the group.
Date: 9/26/2002 5:06:15 PM Pacific Daylight Time
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Thank You VERY Much for sending me this e-mail!
It does help me to know that others do understand
about all this stuff. I am glad that you sent this to
let me know finaly I am not all that weird afterall.
:)
I have been having my tops of my ears burn lately a
lot too. I noticed it got pretty hot on my ear tops
the past couple of days in fact, all of a sudden like.
They are not as bad now but still there is a slight
heat and tingling. Is that part of this Kundalini,
too?
I never heard or read that there is an actual
connection between Lupus and Kundalini. That is very
INTERESTING to learn!
Actually, this Kundalini seems to have tried to make
itself known to me in the past, in dreams and visions,
and feelings, it seems, for some time, but I just
didn't understand because I never really studied the
India
type of mythology. In fact, not only do I not know
about the Indian myths of INdia, I know very little of
my own Cherokee heritage and myths.
Even though I am over half Cherokee, I have not been
blessed to have been able to be connected with my
Cherokee relatives, nor was I able to learn from them.
I have several years ago attempted to join Cherokee
and other Native groups and unfortuantely, found that
there were a lot of distrustful ones within them.
I guess I do not blame them for being so towards we
white looking Native 1/2, & 1/4 breeds, we are now,
the true LOST nation, we have little to no real
"Heritage" of our own. Well, at least some of us, like
myself, do not.
My nana (mom's mom) well, her dad was STOLEN from his
tribe and was put into an "Orphanage" in OK till he
was old enough to be booted out and had to fend for
himself. My father's mother and father both, were of
Native Blood. Neither EVER talked to me about it. They
came in that "Grapes of Wrath" era to pick things here
in the San Juoquin Valley. Once they arrived and
settle in they were officialy fake Whites.
My grandfather (dad's dad) must have been Cherokee
too, like me and my nana, and my dad, he appeared to
be a white man, I only found out in my late teens he
was NOT white ANglosaxon, i.e., German, English, Irish
mix, as I had been lead to believe, that he was
instead, over half Native too. My father's mom I new
she was NOT white. She looked to be Native blood, she
was only a few times admiting she was such though.
My father once said that he had not only CHerokee but
also Apache blood, I suspect this was what my Grandma
was. Her skin and hair was such that it seemed she was
full blood for sure. She too NEVER discussed being
Native or anything to do with that sort of thing. She
pretended to be just as white as my grandfather
appeared to be. It is funny, every time I am VERY
intensely attracted to anything Native, be it a mask,
jewelry, you name it, more often than any other
tribes' creations I am 97-99% of the time most
attracted to things Apache. I guess a little Apache
blood goes a long way! :) lol! Strong stuff! I can't
help but to wonder sometimes if this is part of the
intense visions, etc. I get?
I only studied a little about the other texts I had
mentioned. I think I was trying to find something to
tell me what was going on with all the visions. Maybe
I moreso wanted it to STOP. Or at least to read
somewhere that there were others whom had not only
prophetic dreams and visions and Out of Body
experiences but also experienced the thing I do where
they go into another person's body and feel, things,
see, etc. as if they WERE THAT PERSON!
THis is what I experience most of the time in my
prophetic, more intense dreams. I feel their fear,
etc. It is so hard to settle sometimes after waking.
THus far, my 3rd worst, of the most intense such
experiences was on the early morning of 9-11-01!
I woke up from an AWFUL dream. There was too much
going on all at once within it for me to even put it
into words I was OVERWHELMED by it all. Especially,
the FEELINGS I still had left over from the dream/OBE,
I said to myself "oh PLEASE don't let this be another
one of my awful prophetic dreams, don't let this
happen for real!" went about my usual morning routine,
or I tried, and then, I sat down with my breakfast in
front of the TV, turned it on, and there it was! My
nightmare come true!
As it all unfolded before me, I had flashes of the
dream come back, I felt the feelings and remembered it
all and knew before things were even stated on the
news as it came in what was going to be said and
happen next! It was so surreal!
Also, it seemed when I first started suddenly having
an interest in reading (Approx. 1992) about Jewish
Mysticism, Christianity, the Quran (I only made it
half way through by the way) the only texts/books I
made it through with ease were the Toaist texts and
the few Native books were pretty readable for me too.
I tried to get through the Christian Bible and the
Quran I had much hesitence and I guess the word best
to describe my feeling was uneasiness.
Something keeps me from keeping a Dream journal. I
don't know if I would call it a full fledged "fear"
really, I think it is more of a feeling of, no, better
not do that. You know what I mean? I guess the risk of
someone misusing certain info. they'd find within my
journals is the main reason I just can't seem to bring
myself to delve deep and write it ALL down. ALso I
have this sense of the time is not arrived yet, in a
way. Does anyone else here have such things going on
with themselves also? Especially in regard to the
dreams of the father distant Future?
If so, Please feel free to E-mail me or post to me
about it. I have read several books on Extra Sensory
type subjects years ago, and I never once found one
that mentoned anyone that experiences just as I have.
Some had Out of Body experiences but they viewed as a
spectator NOT from within the person(s) within the
event. And NOT in the FUTURE, but their OBEs were in
the "here and Now" time.
Also, they usually had dreams/visions about people
they new or at least had some kind of direct
"connection" with. Me, well, I usually tune in
strongest to world events of non positive nature,
violence and that which is caused by terrorists not
all terrorist, but there are two groups in particular
that cause me to have even a certain kind of sudden
head pain, that it has happened so many times, now I
KNOW when I get one within 24-48 hrs. I will be
seeing/hearing on the news about another of their
bombings. Otherwise I can just get feelings, like a
feeling of doom or dread or that awful sinky or great
agitation feeling that tends to preceed a BIG and BAD
world event.
This is where I get so frustrated! I do not get ENOUGH
info. to really be a help to STOP anthing bad from
happening in time. Usually, I tune in to FEELINGS. And
I do see things too in my prophetic dreams, only my
memory when I awaken leaves a lot to be desired.
I just remember the who and the what, or the when and
the why, or where but yet to remember clearly the who
,what, when, where, & why! So, I end up having to know
usually just what and see where & or just why/who is
going to happen and just WAIT for the whatever BAD
thing it is to occur to occur. Then, like some kind of
dejevu I have my memories triggered and the flash
backs come flodding in, feelings and all... VERY
frustrating!
By the way I will rap this lonnnnng post up with
telling you what I usually see when I am out and
about. Usually it is NOT the Red Hawk. Usually I see
BIG, Black Crows/ Ravens, also another thing I am
always seeing flying close around me is Dragon Flies.
They are Usualy fire red and kinda creamy white mixed
coloring, or they are Black, kinda deep charcoal grey
in color. Seldom do I see the more normal metalic
looking one I recall seeing in my childhood on rare
ocassion. Also from time to time I will see a lot of
butterflies. It will be like I don't see them at all
for a long time then, all of a sudden I am seeing them
all around me, everywhere I go! I enjoy those
butterflies when they make their appearances, but I
must admit I don't feel so great when I see those big
BLACK birds or those dragon flies around me. LOL!
I will be looking forward very much to reading what
all you ALL have to say about yourselves and or all my
rantings and venting here too. Hope you all are having
a more peaceful and enjoyable time than I am lately.
Blessings to You ALl!
Sincerely,
Lisa
pt6YBB/NXiEAA/MVfIAA/AtTslB/TM
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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