To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/09/25 20:38
Subject: [K-list] Re: Ken's Post and my intro to the group.
From: Lisa Ayers
On 2002/09/25 20:38, Lisa Ayers posted thus to the K-list:
First, I want to thank you all for allowing me in the
group. For some reason I was denied by the prophetic
visions one I tried to join. :( I do have them, maybe
they don't need anymore? lol!
Anyway, I joined this group and attempted to join the
prophetic visions one as well because of a series of
many odd and unusual things that occurred in
susession.(sp?)yes, my spelling leaves a bit to be
desires sometimes.
The main, most recent ones being, that a couple of
days ago I saw an unusual site in the sky that I have
never seen before. A big group of Red Hawks circling
practically right over my head and house!
Which another thing, I reently received this book I
ordered on what I thought was a whim, I had just
started skimming through it about three days ago, it
is a book about Animal Totems. So, as you may guess,
after I saw those birds I thought to go check out just
what they stand for or are a symbol of, WOW! Was I
surprised to read what I did! Also, as you may gues it
made mention of the Kundalani being it's energy/God.
Did I say that right? Hope so.
See, I am still new to most of this sort of thing. I
am NOT knew to having OBEs, Prophetic visions, etc.,
but I am new to daring to read things outside of
secular "main streme Christianity." I started daring
to read such things as books on Kabbalah, Tao, Quran,
etc. a little bit around 1992, which seemed to studily
increase my thirst for knowledge for a few years, most
of which seemed to keep re-confirming most of my
personal feelings and beliefs, the ones that the
mainstreme Christians do NOT believe and actually
speak against.
Then, I started feeling things more intensly. And one
bad thing after another kept happening. I ended up
getting to the point of being, well, I guess most
would call me an "Agnostic." I was first fed up with
this "GOD" being, at least that of the Christian.
Moslem, and Jewish sense of the word "GOd" and to be
100% honest, up until about a week or so ago, I had
gotten to the point that I even felt like what
positives I seemed to glean from the so-called
"Occult" texts I had read were not any comfort to me
either, not enough.
What was worse, I seemed to have lost the sense of
anger I had at "GOD" about things. I say this was
worse because I think I really had gotten to the point
I was so fed up with EVERYTHING and thus, all that GOD
allows to happen, etc., that I had come to the point
just shy of Athiest.And really to the point I had
stopped caring or was dangerously close to stopping
altogether.
The only reason I can't be a total athiest is because
I have had too many spiritual experiences. OBEs,
psychic and actually moreso PROPHETIC (Seldom, if ever
happy) VISIONS, and lately I have a few new ones for
some reason?
These past several days things have really been WEIRD!
All my electronic weirdness of the past couple of
months aside, and the past few days for that matter, I
have had this strange feeling of, well, ENERGY within
myself.
Especially my arms and hands. I have a chronic illness
called Lupus, have had it for years in fact, and
usually I have a drained of energy feeling all over,
so this makes this new feeling all the more WEIRD. I
have not been able to go to bed at my usual early time
of night (between 9-10 PM) Instead, I have been
tossing and turning and unable to get to sleep till
well after 1AM!
Also I have been having headaches. And the latest ones
that I call zingers come from the back of my skull
behind the ear area towards the front temples and are
accompanied with this odd heavy feeling like I have a
helmet on my head or something. Even after the pain
leaves about as quickly as it came I still have that
heavy feeling linger on.
I feel that it is no mere coincedence that I found
this group "Kundalini" just as I had seen it the Word
that is, in that book I had mentioned reading few days
ago.
Then I read your post, Ken! It really FREAKED me out!
Now I KNOW all this weirdness is NOT just my
imagination running away! I have to admit that I feel
there is something soon to happen or appear out of
nowhere. Like it is getting nearer and nearer or is
right around that corner, like the saying goes, and I
am not liking the feelings I am having about it
either. TO call this psychic anxiety would be an great
undestatement.
Most of the visions I have. Which actually are not
just visions as I tend to go within other people. I
actually feel, see, hear and think their feelings,
etc. and live their FUTURE and sometimes current
events from within them as well as changing my point
of view to observer, sometimes above it all or over to
the side and slightly up above it all looking down.
Does anyone else here have this too?
To me, I have felt this more a curse than a blessing.
I do not like seeing things like death and
destruction. I sure didn't like having to have an
AWFUL nightmarish OBE the morning of 9-11-01 only to
get up, turn on the tv and find my nightmare was
REALITY, unfolding as I had just dreamt/felt/seen it
previously! I have had NO ONE to tell this to ever
since that I know would/could understand how it's been
for me. I wouln't wish this on anyone else, but IF
anyone here had anything similar, PLEASE post or
e-mail me via my yahoo e-mail address which is this
member name uswrite, btw, ASAP!
I have also had this SERGE of Creative energy which
had me creating TWO New websites and then
corresponding yahoo groups. Which is actually how I
came upon this group I was looking around to see if
there were any groups that I could join and possibly
find a nice mix of peoples that at least had a few
things in commmon with me and the ideas I was having
for my new groups.
I usually find few if any people that have gone
through and experienced things I have. Also, I tend to
cause flame wars without meaning to whenever I dare to
speak about my political views. So I think I better
NOT post any of my political opinions here unless you
all do NOT like or trust GW Bush and comrades then, I
guess I can post about that if you all want me to. :)
Well, now that you know about all my weirdness, hope
you will let me stay in this group. I also hope you
can help me to better understand, and DARE I hope,
CONTROL these "Extra Sensory" perceptions, etc. going
on within and about me. Aside from what I read in in
the one paragraph of that book I had mentioned on
Aniamal Totems, I now Nothing about this "Kundalini."
I only recall vaguely, that about 2-3 years ago I had
a weird dream that had the Pope in it as well as other
religious figures, and I heard as I saw these two, one
looked male, the other female, gods, I think they
were, from the Indian beliefs? I thought and felt that
the female god had something to do with WAR. I saw her
and heard her say something to me last, after the male
god did so. Since I am about half Cherokee Indian, but
as far as I know, I am not the kind of Indian from
India, and have not been taught either of those
religious teachings, I did not really know what to
make of the dream at the time I had it. But it seems
to be bcoming more and more obvious to me what is all
meant. Actually there are several dream that I have
had that haven't happened YET, which I feel are just
beginning to UNFOLD for us ALL.
What am I to do about all this? Can I do anything?
I wish I knew WHY I am receiving what I do? I mean why
me? I have no politcal power. No money, no high social
standing, I do not even belong to any church or other
organizations. So why have I got these visions, etc.
coming in so much of the time? I wish I could help
somehow, be able to keep the bad things from
happening, but I am of course, not able to do that.
All I can really do most of the time is just WAIT. Not
to see "IF" but to see WHEN. Know what I mean?
Well, enough of me rattling off.
Hope to read some helpful posts to me SOON!
Sincerely,
Lisa
aka: uswrite/ The Sublime Sobriquet*~*
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