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Recieved: 2002/09/25 12:51
Subject: Re: [K-list] fuzzy around the edges
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/09/25 12:51, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 07:27 AM 23/09/02, Stephen Kowalchuk wrote:
>Anyone getting a feeling that time is a little fuzzy in the future and past?
>Normally I can see very clear future/past "threads" like a spiderweb
>connecting
>events. Lately, everything a few days in the future or past is totally fuzzed
>out and I can't see a damn thing.
I have been like that, for a few years now. The past feels like it
belonged to someone else. I remember dates in the recent past, by the
quality of light... remembering the weather and guessing the season. I am
not attached to anything enough to want to scry the future. It doesn't
matter... I am in the now.
>My memory has also been conveniently fuzzed out, to the point where I have to
>keep my focus on a 1-3 day span or I completely lose track.
yup..
> This is not a bliss
>thing, that I can tell. I have been doing grounding meditations every couple
>hours and the effect has not changed. I find myself drawn to certain mental
>math and everything else is fading, and I am hyperenergetic about the
>topic I am
>drawn to and little else, almost ADHD-like. Surrender to the experience is
>fine, but I was hoping to find out if this is a local or global phenomenon.
I am finding myself with a lot of creative energy, but the focus does
not last... so I start a lot of things, and finish few. Lots of unfinished
emails in my box, but few actually getting done and sent.
I am taking the time to do a "Fall cleansing", inside and out. The high
energy and fuzziness makes it easier to let go of things. Attachments
burning off as soon as they start to manifest.
Percyval reminded me the other day, that I am about the only person he
knows, who does pretty much whatever I want, most of the time. Being self
employed makes it easier to surf on the flow... the sine wave of the
serpent. We change with the turning of the seasons, in a regular way...
thus the ancients devised rituals at the solstices and the equinoxes, and
four more halfway in between, as a way to celebrate and surrender to the
turning.
>Other symptoms:
> - normal work/home plans are falling through
A message to surrender...
> - normal sleep patterns, but vivid dreams
> - kriyas more numerous and intense than normal
> - more energy, but it feels comfortable
>
>I feel fine, but I feel far too much "in the moment" and without the sense of
>context that I am used to.
Let it go. Life is what happens while we are making other plans.
>One of my friends said that we are at an inflection point in time, where the
>future is being written abnormally close to the present,
Heh... there is only now.
>and the reason I can't
>see the future like I normally do is because it's not written yet. Dovetails
>nicely into our talk on fate and free will, no?
yes, if you like.
The thing about these high energy times, is that it is best not to put
too much energy into any idea attachment. When energy is high, thoughts
have more power, they manifest into a reality shift quicker than you might
think. The effect of thoughts on dimensional navigation happens faster. Do
you want to live in a universe where what he says about time being written
closer, is true? Focus on it, believe it, and you will go there.
Blessings... -------y.lEAA/MVfIAA/AtTslB/TM
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