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Recieved: 2002/09/22 07:46
Subject: Re: [K-list] Triggers revisited Poll
From: Lbra782595

> 1. Did you have a spontaneous awakening, or was it "planned?"
>
Quite spontaneous

> 2. What do you think triggered your awakening?
> Meditation, working w/ shakti/energy flow. Concentrated on opening heart
> chakra only, and allowing energy to do what it needed.
>
As I recall, I was meditating on the death of Jesus. I was struck by the
fact that an enlightened being would come to Earth knowing he was to die the
most heinous of deaths. The Love expressed in that act was quite
overwhelming to me.

> a. Was an "eastern" technique involved? ( i.e. meditation, Hatha Yoga,
> chanting etc.) and if so which one?

No. Just sitting and thinking, really.

> b. Was a strong emotion involved? Love? Fear? Pain? Despair? and if so was
> prayer involved?

Strong emotion was the very heart of the experience. I had known the story
of Jesus since childhood, but I had never paused to consider the implications
fully. I became aware of this beautiful Divine Love Jesus had expressed with
his death. Then I became painfully aware that my own expressions of Love
were pathetic by comparison. This triggered a great fear in me--that I was
not worthy of the kingdom of heaven. I cried horribly.

Then I began to pray with all the sincerity a human being is capable of.

> c. Do you think heredity is implicated?
>
Only as far as there is slight tendancy toward eccentricity on my fathers
side. My paternal grandmother was extremely religious and was almost totally
responsible for my biblical knowlege. She was also VERY eccentric, but only
to the casual observer.

> d. Did you have an NDE (Near Death experience)?
>
As someone on the list so eloquently stated: "At first, I was afraid I was
going to die. Then I became afraid I was going to live."

There was no NDE, but at the time I was sure I was about to die.

Sincerely,
Jason B

http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm

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