To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/09/19 21:47
Subject: [K-list] eh
From: Onlycycles
On 2002/09/19 21:47, Onlycycles posted thus to the K-list:
Yes yes, I am still floating about checking mails via the internet-things are funny here. I have learned a lot living in the city.
I've been thinking about thoughts-what are they? Connections of energy, created inside of our minds? If a thought is some kind of energy, either something created, or released-then what is it that makes a thought true?
We decide to believe, or disbelieve in a thought-that doesn't mean it is physically, or spiritually true. Even if things point in a certain direction, that this or that thought is likly to be true..that still doesn't mean it is exact. A thing like perfection-who's perfection?! With out creatures to think up the idea of perfection, there would be no labels of anything being perfect, or imperfect. Same as with truth...we created that idea..this whole thing seems to eat its self. A loop-maybe language created a deeper level of communication-a deeper level to connect at, better than grunts and reconized facial expressions of our primate times..but...
I feel like things are kind of worthless now-worthless is a good way. Not..poor me, nothing matters..but..Wow, I'm finally free..Sort of.
The strange duality there is, although I've freed myself from many things-even art, I plan to drop out of college, this being needs to explore-brazil probably-yes a certain kind of freedom to finally untie those bounds that held me to something that was so hard not to pursue..
The other side is, wile I've come closer a life with less boundries, I feel personas switching around left and right here. People seem to get in someone-maybe a judgemental additute. I seem to have dropped a lot as well-I am only hoping the energy rises as well as falls.
I know that everything might only be a demon of my own nature, even when I feel like I am someone else-its just kind of saddening. I feel like I've switched from spiritual awareness to physical awareness because of this-not just meaning my body, but more so the workings of the world. There are just some things that I care not to think about too much.
On the one hand, I've lost a lot of things that I considered to be important, on the other, I've found things that will definatly expand my mind. SO, things being so 50-50, all I can do is to stop thinking, stop living that kind of life.
Oh and by the way-(yeh off topic) Bright Eyes, is a band that's recently popped up in my life-I can here K. in almost all of there songs, but their music can be totattly depressing. Maybe I can feel it so much there because I have worn and wore out those shoes?
Anyway, I will be back in Sedona in a week most likly, working for my next adventure.
Jason
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