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Recieved: 2002/09/12 01:07
Subject: [K-list] Guru story
From: Lori Worley

Hi All

I'd like to share a story with you about gurus. My first awakening (that I
am aware of), happened in 98 when I went to India and saw Sai Baba. Just
over a year later, I was working in Germany, and He appeared to me twice.
While He was with me, I experienced a lot of pain at the root chakra. I was
quite frightened and asked Him to stop as I didn't know what he was doing.
For 2.5 years I trusted that He 'knew best'.

I started to hear stories about how other people were claiming He was
abusing them and claiming it was in the name of Kundalini. I didn't feel
the experience was sexual, but I didn't know. In February this year I was
driving in the south of France, just contemplating the fact that He might
have been abusing me. I was driving on the motorway, and the car began to
swerve. I knew it was Him and I shouted, "Stop it! You may have been doing
what You thought was best, and perhaps my higher self knew, but my lower
self didn't understand what was happening. You didn't respect all of me!"
The car stopped swerving, and I felt like I was travelling in a bubble of
peace from then on.

I learned that He likes people to be angry with him, because Sai Baba works
in a way that He reflects back people's own issues, and yes, for a long time
I didn't have any respect for myself and I allowed others to control me. I
knew a big shift had taken place that day. I don't see Him as my 'guru' -
I'm not tied to any spiritual tradition at the moment (though I sometimes
practice Kriya Yoga and Kundalini Yoga). However, He still pops up at
interesting times. He hasn't abandoned me, even though I don't worship him
like many others do.

Any comments welcome.
Lori
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