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Recieved: 2002/09/03 19:36
Subject: Re: [K-list] Spiritual cleanliness
From: Xerxenca
On 2002/09/03 19:36, Xerxenca posted thus to the K-list:
> Hi again!
> Something weird has been going on with me lately besides my last post. I
have always been kind of obsessive over keeping my hands clean and stuff.
But to really make life more difficult I have started to get a dirty feeling
around people especially at the end of the day. I know this sounds strange
but like my hubby I cant bear to be close to him sometimes, it is like I
feel he is covered with junk in his aura and stuff. I just sense so much
junk on people and I feel kind of repulsed by them. I have to actually do a
spiritual cleansing on my hubby and me to get close to him anymore. He is
the only one that I really get close to so I dont have this prob with other
people.
Well how about take on his 'junk' for yourself, and give him your peace?
Make a substitution, you get his darkness, he gets your light. Let the K
then deal with the darkness.
Maybe that's what you have been doing without realizing it. It's called
'love.'
This was the essence of Christ's mission. A being of light who chose the
cross so that others could be enlightened.
Or in Buddhist terms, the sravakas and pratyekabuddhas are content to simply
abide in their own peace and happiness, while the bodhisattvas forsake
nirvana so that others might be liberated.
Peace,
Rob
*************
I dunno - this just doesn't feel right to me. Not in some absolute sense, but
in the "different lessons at different passes in the turn" sort of sense.
What I understood Kirsty to say was that her empathy is getting amped up and
she's feeling overwhelmed by what she's feeling from those close to her and
she doesn't know what to do in terms of "energy hygene". "Giving up" her own
light and taking on someone else's darkness sounds like the sort of thing one
might be able to do when one is comfortable and practiced with the
transmutation of one's own energy, but it can be unnecessarily destabilizing
before there's a strong and steady grounded state.
Are you feeling grounded these days Kirsty?
Oh and "love" what does that mean? So many things. . . . there's an
interesting discussion of what "love" means going on in the kundalini_sex
forum right now. But I guess all sorts of alarms go off in my head when I
hear someone telling a wife to think of love as self-sacrifice. I still
believe in honoring my desires . . .
Taking on the other's darkness, burden's, karma, hmmm. Wouldn't there need to
be permission for such things? Actually, I wonder whether one can take
another's karma, sounds a little like an ego trip to me. I don't think one
can, as I now think of karma, one can't. But the potentiality for the cross
current to become a "codependent" attachment seems pretty high. I guess I
think of karma as really entanglement made worse by "wriggling", kind of like
Chinese handcuffs, you know?
Kirsty - I heard you say earlier you were longing for a closer romantic
feeling with your husband, and now you are saying you are repulsed by the
negativity you are feeling around him. This sound like an opportunity for you
to learn some discenment and to differentiate your what you want for what
IS. And it gives you the chance to watch your own projections here too - what
is yours alone, his alone and what is yours together.
I'd say be patient and keep watching . . . and grounding. And I guess I'd
suggest you keep clearing your own energy field . . .
Inserting myself,
:)
Ana Maria
pt6YBB/NXiEAA/MVfIAA/AtTslB/TM
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