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Recieved: 2002/08/26 00:50
Subject: Re: [K-list] Awakening and Loneliness
From: Kenneth Chipman
On 2002/08/26 00:50, Kenneth Chipman posted thus to the K-list:
I've feel lonely most of my life. When I was a kid, I thought it was normal and everyone felt that way! It wasn't until I was much older that I figured out what other people meant when they talked about feeling lonely.
I liked to experience my aloneness as solitude, lonliness can be transmuted to solitude.
About 7 years ago I manifested\came into a wonderfull relationship and I don't often experience that feeling now days.
The precursor to the relationship was practicing self love and acceptance. Once that practice was grounded I was able to begin to apply that depth of acceptance to others. I am not perfect at either of these practices, but it sure made a whopping difference in some primary relationships!
Love and Blessings,
Kenneth
YAHWEH SHALOM SHAMMAH
Tora Or Project - http://members.truepath.com/toraor
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From: HSV & AAL
To: Kundalini List
Sent: Monday, August 26, 2002 5:49 AM
Subject: [K-list] Awakening and Loneliness >A mentor told me that loneliness was one of the indicators that God is
working with you spiritually.
** I hope so much that this isn't so for me. I haven't yet had my
awakening and from my mother's experience, I'm terrified of it. I
have been terrified of anything "other-worldly" or "unseen and
unknown". (I have a horrible time with words, please allow a little
latitude and use some inference) Ever since my mother told me of
the family "ghost" experiences, I've always been afraid of having
those experiences myself. I know almost nothing of the things you
all know... only a mere dust mite on the surface of the universe of
knowledge.
** But I don't ever want to be alone again. I spent most of my life
alone, or feeling lonely. It has taken some very hard and traumatic
experiences in life, and some years of soul searching, to finally
find that special union. I finally have that emotional support
system that I always dreamed of. I feel safe and secure, like I have
that sturdy foundation on which to stand and be brave enough to try
new and difficult things.
** Having his support and trust and unconditional love has allowed
me to explore and discover my submissive side with a Dom online.
I never once had to worry about jealousy or insecurity from him.
His support is now allowing me to do all the difficult and scary
things involved with treating my fibromyalgia.
** I'm having an awful time with anxiety these days and hearing
that taking this path of enlightenment could leave me alone makes
me just want to turn and run the other way. Please tell me that
some of you still have the support, love, and understanding (not
just humoring) of your loved ones.
Worried, as usual,
Cambeie
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