To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/08/17 11:30
Subject: [K-list] Some words to Kenneth
From: . A.S.A.

I send this to the list as a little explanation, because I am not going to continue to discuss this on the level of intellect.. What is there to discuss anyhow..

Some people have had re-action to what I write and there is emotional content in the letters I read.. And I have been trying to explain to them what is happening, but, appearantly it is hard to listen to me without judging the experience..

I respect that people may have difficulties going beyond their judgements, that is what they have been programmed to do, defend the scars..

And will now withdraw from this list, and play and practise with words in a free space where people do not take what I write personally..

Thank you..

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This is a letter I wrote to Kenneth, as an anwer to a question he asked me..

what I am doing is using words, as metaphors and symbols to release energy from my body, allowing it to speak.. And Christopher has mirrored words as tools for me to express my Inner knowing..

My "former mindset" was a sum of different personalitites that had been projected on me as a child, thoughtforms in the cellular memory.. and I have released very much of these emotional memories from the body, deep scars, memories on the rape of innocense from my ancestors.. Releasing the minds repressions on my lifeforce..

The words flow, without me thinking, and I guess the words that CW have used is a very nice way to express what I know.. And my mother language is not even english..
I do not think when I write I just "pick up" metaphors and symbols to express the flow releasing..

What happens when most people read my words, expressed from the body is that the intellect of the person reading it will begin spinning.. like Oh, there must be some-thing, she is this and that, and try comprehend the change that has happened to me intellectually and so "the thinking mind" goes back to a memory of the past, and tries to put a label on what it experiences ..

There is often a re-action to my words, if there is an emotional memory and/or associations from the past coming up in the person who reads it.. And then naturally it tries to defend itself in order to stay alive..

And no I am not playing "superior" as some people translate what I say, just being honest as from my experience.. many find it threatening as you might have observed.. That is because there is old emotional memories still active in the body.. And so they project theirs minds interpretation of that memory on me..
Instead of allowing it to be released in their own bodies..

I just do it for the practise of playing with words, I do not speculate about it, just go with the flow.. What I do and say does not matter to me, it serves no apparent purpose, its just playfullness in experience.. And all fragments come together, forming a bigger picture.. Eternally unfolding itself..

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