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Recieved: 2002/08/12 20:42
Subject: Re: [K-list] ~looking for the light at the end of a tunnel~
From: jlb

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From: ami301971
To: K-list
Sent: Monday, August 12, 2002 8:31 PM
Subject: [K-list] ~looking for the light at the end of a tunnel~Hi all :) I am posting this because I am quite frankly at a real low
point in some of the most important area's of my life. I know that
coming on here and begging for help perhaps does not make the best
impression. Until recently, in the last month, I have felt very good
about life and my spirituality.

~~That is often the time when we get our challenge.. When are up
to it. So we don't get more than we can bear.

I had a miscarrage about a month or
so ago, and it seems I have just stopped. Everything spiritually. I
still know my truth, it just seems i am overcome with a sadness that
doen't leave me crying all day, it does something else altogether. It
is like a lingering ghost that haunts me. I can smile I can even
laugh, but it is the sadness that is underlying it all. I feel
unconnected. The baby was not planned or anything, and I really didnt
want anymore children, so one might think that I would be "relieved".
But I can not escape this sadness.

~~Think of it as a work completed, and not as a mistake. Sometimes we
just don't get to know all the reasons.

I feel the presence of heat at my
base chakra constantly, its is like its on fire. when I feel this I
am sad and scared. Anyway if anyone has any idea's for help, i would
be so grateful. i know that things are the way they are because of my
higher self choosing these experiences for me, i choosed to
experience them. At least that is my truth. I am just trying to find
the otherside of this tall and great mountain. I am not looking for
sympathy really, I just wanna feel okay and be able to move forward
and live ...does that make sense? Anyway any thoughts would be
greatly appreciated.looking for the light through a room full of shadows....
be bless in the wonder of all that is and is not

ami

~~You do have my sympathy.. for what its worth. My heart really
went out to you as I read this. Sadness and loneliness just seem to
be an intrigal part of the spiritual path for some reason. But I believe
that after the trial comes the blessing..

I'm still waiting too.. :-) But we always have a lot to be greatful for.
Focus on what you have, and are.

"Be happy, Don't worry"
johnl

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