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Recieved: 2002/08/07 07:32
Subject: [K-list] Deja U
From: Rich
On 2002/08/07 07:32, Rich posted thus to the K-list:
Wow... So long.... It's funny to scan through the list. A few flame
fights, a couple of preachers, and a big dose of joyful insight and
sharing and wonderful creativity.
First let me thank those that suggested the book to me by Og Mandino -
cool, I not finished but so far think it's very original and nicely
written perspective on selling.
So where am I... Well finally moved on from my throat block a bit.. More
in the head now, but finally got the hang of opening the crown up to let
the steam out :) Like a kettle boiling and buliding up pressure until
the lid is open. So now I try to imagine a column of light inside me
shining right through me and it seemed to help clear out the cobwebs as
I surrender into the bliss of nothingness.
The gifts are wonderful. Now living in a new land with a new job, a new
language and new people. All very wonderful. Thank you goddess... Be
careful what you ask for :) Never felt so good to follow inner voice.
It's truly wonderful - synchronicities happening so often. If I had
thought much about what I'm now doing I would not have done it. Now I
have next to no regret and am not looking back. Tryling to live in
silence and just move according to goddess will.
So a couple of interesting ones... Comments welcome....
Anyone know the patten of a distant relationship.. I said to myself I
never wanted to let this happen again and just before I depart country I
meet a girl who meets my ideal in many ways. She also likes me or what
I'm not being :) and we get along fine and dandy. Have very special time
together. So I leave the old dart (England) and now find myself in long
distant relationship again... Why oh why.. What is it that creates this
pattern for me.. It's an odd one but in all my relationships it's seems
to be a theme...Deja Vu... I've felt this from time to time in the past, but whilst
talking on the Internet with my special friend half way round the world.
We both had a simultaneous feeling of Deja Vu. It was really quite weird
and left me a little unnerved afterwards. It was like I just departed my
body for a few seconds and re-wrote the file of what happened. Like
re-living the experience again... She thought it might be fate... I not
sure (maybe wishful thinking).. Goddess tells me that it meant to happen
like this... I didn't think I was feeling it from her, or her from me. I
think we both had this simultaneous Deja Vu... Very freaky...Been spending some time with another girl (only friend).. What was
interesting was that I always felt tired and started to yawn a lot
around her (even on the phone). I don't normally feel like this around
people but I remember that I did feel the same toward the end of my
relationship with my ex-girlfriend. So it may be that there is a
likeness in this other girl.
Anyway we joked about this a bit during the day. But the next day she
rang me up and complained at me - she said I made her tired. She wanted
to go to bed at 8pm. I thought this was funny. And I had some resistance
to speaking with her. I was closed down a bit as it felt she was
grabbing at my energy. Maybe this is the explanation.
Wondering what to do.. Should I not resist and let my energy flow to
her... Feels like I'm being sucked into a vacuum or should I send her on
her way?
Wishing you all peace + joy.
:)
Rich
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