To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/07/08 03:02
Subject: Re: [K-list] Children of Tohu
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/07/08 03:02, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 06:42 AM 05/07/02, Doc Kunda wrote:
>Dear Chris,
>
> Your tone is very judgmental,
>condescending, course and ALL KNOWING.
Heh, heh... yep, that's our Christopher. He is actually much more
human than he used to be. We love him, and we do not take him too
seriously. He is growing just like we all are.
> I do not claim such
>power, and I do not know how you or anybody else on this
>list can.
I got the impression you were claiming it, and looking to start a club.
> Your demeanor is not very different from the
>contempt you expressed for many list members and their
>inability to understand and handle K management, in an off
>list post you sent me.
if you read his posts while filtering out his projections it gets better.
>So that if they are still trying to resolve the worlds
>expectations of them, that I can help them overcome and
>remember who they are and why they are here.
Ah, to be the Svengali and bask in their reflected glory... like a
Slayer and her Watcher. I've really been getting into "Buffy the Vampire
slayer", lately...
What is better than being a Tohu savior? To be the savior of the Tohu
saviors? Who elected you to that pedestal?
> By asking the
>question, it may spark intuitive sensations that would lead
>to such an individual exploring their personal truth and
>purpose according to these truths.
You and Christopher are up to the same game, no wonder you are bouncing
off each other. Pretty basic advertising strategy, point out a problem
nobody worried about before, and provide the solution. If you are awakened
and can put some K-fire charisma behind it, project the glamour then you
can attract a lot of business.
> I only want to help
>others who are suffering in the muck, and hope that my
>experiences and realizations could be of assistance in
>pulling them out of it and into the Light, Love, and Truth.
Oh goody, duelling soapboxes... that oughta liven up the list a little.
> > (oh .. and by the way .. a prodigy would be the last person
> > to even think that he or she was anything special .. )
> >
> > Sorry Doc ..
>
>Sorry Chris
Sounds like a country and western tune...
Is there anyone on the planet who does not think they are special? Of
course we all do! Even people who spend their lives wallowing in self pity
and humility, think their talent for it makes them special.
Goddess within us, our very soul tells us we are special and unique,
and it is true!
>I am very very very very special and have known it since my
>earliest memory.
I think that is a normal, healthy attitude.
> If you were me, you would understand.
If you were me, then you would understand how special I am! But I am
me, so I know I am the one who is most special... Nyah nyah. heh. Kids
these days...
>Since you are not me, please refrain from your ALL KNOWING
>attacks. How can a prodigy be him/herself if they do not
>acknowledge their gifts and uniqueness and their
>purpose?????
How can anyone, not be themselves?
>I have been sent to help multitudes (in the 100"s of
>millions +) overcome there fears (of Spirit) and show them
>to live in a more harmonious way with nature and creation.
What happened to you, to so completely destroy your natural self esteem
and sense of purpose, to make you need to build yourself up with stories of
your special saviorness in order to feel good about yourself?
>It is knowing your mission, accepting it, and running with
>it that makes ones specialness manifest in the physical
>world. Otherwise you have no grounding or reference point
>from which to operate.
I think it is cute how you spank Christopher for projecting his
worldview, then turn around and do the exact same thing.
> > but I've seen far too much bastardisation and commercialisation
> > of "Children of Light" and "Indigo Children" by people who are
> > doing nothing more than using them
> > for the benefit of their own ego's ..
and what is it you are doing with them Christopher? You seem to be
getting pretty good mileage, yourself. You need them, more than they need you.
>I never heard of the term Indigo Child until two months
>ago. When I read the description, I almost passed out in an
>adrenaline rush. The description could not have been more
>accurate. I was an early indigo, 1962.
Heh.. yeah ditto... too old as they describe the current crop. I think
the young ones have it easy, there is so much more information available
and they can find each other.
> I still describe
>myself the same ways as I use to, just now have an
>additional analogy to TRY and help people like you
people like you !! Whooooo hoooooo what a hoot! What a perfect
separation. People like me and people like you... and so the lines are
drawn and the armies gathered on both sides...
Let me tell you something... us old indigos share a common scar, that
comes of our isolation and the .. heh, "old age" (as opposed to "New Age")
world we were raised in... and it takes the form of kundalini psychosis,
messiah complex.
There are plenty of entities around that love to get people's attention
by feeding their ego with some story of heroism, specialness, fancy titles
and urgent missions... whatever will get you to keep feeding them with your
attention, and giving your power to them. Whatever you will believe,
whatever you secretly need to hear.. so they may feed on your emotional
energy. Of course, most people do it to themselves... Never noticing that
hope is also fear of the future.
It is the astral level, where games of heroes and victims, winners and
losers are played out. Shadow games, where the unconscious manifests
aspects of all that is thought to be not-self. The power chakra dimension,
which also carries the issues of Free will and Divine Will... move one
chakra up, into the heart and it all falls down. There is no "us and them",
there is only All.
I heard the words often enough, growing up: "Stop acting like you think
you are so special"... and it got so bad, that if I could have located the
mysterious "specialness" they were speaking of, that made me always an
outsider, I'd have cut it out like a wart... like I tried to cut off my
third nipple, as a young teenager. Sure, it hurt... but it did not hurt as
much as being a misfit did.
So, to keep the projections out, you had to feed your specialness, feed
it and hold it close like a secret till it grew into a monster that needed
to be savior to thousands, to feel filfilled. To feel worthy of being alive.
Over the years of the list, we have had many saviors come. We give them
love and acceptance, sometimes arguments and the occasional reality check,
till they grow out of it. Many who stayed...
You know that what you see, is a reflection of who you are. You are the
one who wants help. You are the one who wants validation for your
suffering, and help in finding more love and light.
Life does not need a reason. Personally, whenever I start thinking I've
got some kind of mission, I give my head a shake and surrender it all
before I start digging myself into another reality tunnel, and probably
hauling a few people along with me.
>understand. It has nothing to do with ego, as I have become
>selfless and single minded over the years.
The indigo kids don't need us, Grandpa. :) We did the work, paving the
way and all that. Like Shiva said, we are outdated models... Heh.. it is
the kids parents who need the counselling to cope...
> I promise you,
>nobody would wish my life on themselves or their worst
>enemy. If it sounds like I live in a basket of roses and
>something, and I am bragging about, think again, they are
>way to many thorns for comfort.
and you are still carrying a lot of scars. The scars and the mission,
are one. It is your own scars, the mire of the past you want to pull
yourself from. The child within you. Here are your scars. Here is your
mission. Prove your talent for healing talented children, by healing the
one inside of you, first.
> It all has to do with
>providing help for others to help them realize that they are
>not sick, the world is. It all comes back to Love,
>sacrifice, and ones unique mission on this planet.
Two sides of the same coin, you had to give the pain meaning so you
told yourself a story of specialness and purpose. What if that story, is
not true? Would your life then, have no purpose?
There is a beautiful healer named Byron Katie who asks:
"Who are you, without your stories?"
Life does not need a reason. It just Is.
Blessings...
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