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Recieved: 2002/07/02 20:27
Subject: [K-list] Re: Hello all... kinda out of it
From: mareadba
On 2002/07/02 20:27, mareadba posted thus to the K-list:
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., Keith Chapman <woopachingATnospamy...> wrote:
> Hello everyone,
> Hope you all are doing great in your endevors and dreams. I
think I might take a moment to ramble on... I've just been in a weird
limbo state of mind lately. Unable to focus or calm, and so
unmotivated. Meditation is more like sleep and I no longer feel the
old urges to dive into deep contemplation of some intriguing thought.
>
This is only one form of meditation. It can increase the ability for
logical cognition and improve one's thinking ability.
Another form is to be the witness to the thoughts. This can increase
the objective facility and enable one to reasonably choose what
action, if any, a particular thought or thought process would/will
require.
And, when awareness is focused on awareness, well - could blow your
mind. <grin>snip ->
I guess I've just lost my motivation, but why? I still feel a want
> to be into spirituality, I would love to be so connected to
>everything, or really to be consciously connected to everything.
It is not uncommon to experience emotional lows. The old cliche -
'it's always darkest before the dawn' - applys here, my friend.
No need to chuck it all. If the depression is cyclic, or chronic,
then find a healer to help out with that. On the other hand, the mind
does like to pull its tricks - that is only natural.
Persevere. If one form of meditation isn't working, you may need to
try something else. Or, you may even need to take a small break from
it.
Oh, yes, you are already connected with everything. Maybe you
don't "feel" it, but you are. The universe doesn't create us with
anything other than the stuff of itself. We are not born outside of
the universe. I know that sometimes life can sure seem to have locked
us outside and won't let us in. But, please understand, heck, that
feeling of being separate is only a feeling - it will pass.
snip-
>So now that I'm thinking, perhaps I've withdrawn myself back towards
grasping the "real" world.. and holding onto my life out of fear. I
believe I have lost what tiny amount of surrender and contentment I
may have at one point had or lived as, I don't know how to explain
it. Life seemed full and blooming, vibrant and new. I know there's no
reason why it should not be full and invigorating now.
>
Nope, no reason at all. Consider this though, wisdom is born from
experience. And, what better teacher of compassion than pain?>Hmm, well thanks for listening, I know all I
> really need to do is blah blah blah, get it out of me, and be happy
again.
>
> Thanks,
> Keith
We can run
And dodge
But where can we hide?
When the Universe wants to play?
loveya - michael
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