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Recieved: 2002/06/29 05:53
Subject: [K-list] Re: Like attracts like?
From: lionessbleu1
On 2002/06/29 05:53, lionessbleu1 posted thus to the K-list:
It actually gets better Siska.
I have had and sometimes still have very strong reactions against
people who are fundamentalists in their belief. It doesn't matter
from what spiritual tradition it was I really abhored the
paternalistic, patronizing tone the fundamentalists took when they
manifest themselves on the list. I would take after them when they
started after the more sensitive and naive members of the list. They
were often scaring and intimidating the members or else they would
try to proselytize them into their faith/belief system.
I was a fundie myself for a long time so I had an inside look on what
the motivations were because I used to do the same things. In fact, I
had been encouraged and trained to do it.
It is not quite the same thing as what you are talking about. I was
the aggressor myself not the receiver of such manipulation and
condescension. But...it takes two to play the game. Some people are
immune for whatever reasons to these particular control games that
proselytizers and intimidators play.
What I do know is that I did it because I was full of fear,
uncertainty, and anger myself.
Like you, I have dealt (and sometimes still deal) with the archetype
that lives in me. She is the persecutor/savior. I haven't been
creative enough to name her yet. Actually she is really a male if I
think about it. He still pops up from time to time also but he has
been much transformed in his agenda as I have opened myself more and
more to love and learned to let go of fear. He is more of an avenging
angel whose approach has softened over the years. He carries a sword
of fire but is more and more gentle as the years go by.
People who come on the list who push my persecutor/savior/avenging
angel button now teach me more about enlarging my own capacity to
love and moving towards the middle path of compassion and balance.
I still get mad but I don't get tied up in knots about it. I still
get mad but the flames are no where as intense as they used to be.
The flames are just enough now to burn my butt, get me out of a
complacent attitude, stand up and speak my peace with an intent to
move towards wholeness and healing rather than crush, kill and
destroy. :)
Actually Mars lives inside of us. Mars grows stronger or weaker
depending on how much we feed him.
Mirror, mirror, I see myself reflected in everyone.
Namaste,
Susan
"When seen through the eyes of cosmic understanding, anything
unhappy in your past is the very same as if it never happened."
*Unknown*
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., "Siska quot; <t; wrote:
>
> Yesterday I let rip at someone who made me very angry. Surprise
surprise I have spent my whole life struggling with the legacy of
twisted women. One was an extremely dark, bitter, vindictive great
grandmother. Another systematically and knowingly attempted to
manipulate and play God over not only my family but her own too.
This figure has cropped up for me repeatedly throughout my life. Does
this figure say something about me? I'd be the first to admit that,
though quite what I'm still trying to figure.
>
snip
> So you can see I had a bit of a double whammy yesterday. Will
someone please tell me where Mars is right now?
>
> Going back to bed
> Siska.
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