To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/06/26 07:31
Subject: Re: [K-list] K and chronic illness
From: Michael
On 2002/06/26 07:31, Michael posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Carol,
Three months after my K experience I came down with what at first seemed to be a severe flu. The "flu" has ended up lasting 3 years, now! A year ago, the illness was labeled as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. At the time that I first became ill, I was in probably the best physical condition that I had been in, in years! One theory regarding the "causes" of CFS is that it can be triggered by strong physical, or emotional trauma. Aside from the K awakening, I had also experienced a rather strong emotional trauma at about the same time. So! After 3 years, it doesn't matter to me if it was K, emotional trauma, or little green aliens that triggered the illness. Even if a definitive answer had been given, it is not clear if it would have ANY impact on the course of the illness. The question has become "what is the message for me to read in this event?", as well as "how and what can I do to remain open to life, and to others around me, while experiencing this illness?". The second question is important because in my initially frantic "why" search I withdrew into myself, and became somewhat isolated. I had trapped myself in an artificial construct. Union is reality. Isolation is illusion. Regarding drugs, etc... there are many theories about what the ideal conditions are for "working" with K, (Heh... like anything other than complete surrender could possibly be effective...!). I'm sure others on this list are more qualified to comment on those issues than I am. My take is- it happens when it happens, to whom it happens, regardless of who they are, and what their circumstances are. I put myself at risk of missing the "message" if I try to make "my" experience fit into someone else's idea of "perfect".
Much love,
Michael
----- Original Message -----
From: Carol Singer
To: K-list
Sent: Monday, June 24, 2002 4:38 PM
Subject: [K-list] K and chronic illness
Hi, Michael & all,
Since my K began making waves about 2 months ago, the more I find out
about it the more it seems other things that happened in my life earlier
are related, that I would not have ordinarily associated with K.
Specifically, I am interested that you (Michael) said you developed a
chronic illness right after your K awakening. Would you mind telling me
more about it? I myself have rheumatoid arthritis, & about 3 years ago,
at the height of my symptoms & before I got a diagnosis, I noticed a
tendency in myself to trance out quite easily whenever I looked at an
intricate design or even the grain in wood. I thought it was just one
more weird symptom & really forgot about it when I got diagnosed & began
bringing my arthritis under control with drug therapy. But the trancing
behavior came back this spring, and then my K got triggered. I can't
help thinking the 3 things are related: the trancing, the K AND the
arthritis.
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