To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/06/22 12:15
Subject: Re: [K-list] Being Worked on
From: Druout

In a message dated 6/21/2002 4:30:20 PM Pacific Daylight Time,
shellelrATnospamaol.com writes:

> Hillary, I'd like to hear others' experiences. It's so weird when it
> happens
> and sometimes I wake up from it feeling blissful and sometimes just wrung
> out
> and exhausted. I have wondered sometimes whether there is some description
>
> of this in some known neurological disease, some western medicine
> explanation
> of it, but I haven't found anything like it described anywhere.

Dear Shelle,

I don't think any disease can explain it! :))

For me, the most powerful experiences of being "worked on" occurred about 6
months into my experiences--in June of 1997 before I came on the K-list.
Unlike Jason's experience of seeing a physical being, the energy didn't
manifest itself visually. At the time I didn't relate the experience to
chakras--but in one note I wrote, "Pure intense pleasure felt esp in abdomen.
 Felt worked on all night experiencing strong pleasure." In another note I
said "inside the bliss seems to be states of transcendence and 'satori.' The
body feels 'worked on' and there seems to me a 'message center' of some sort
that gives voice and somewhat controls what's going on." and in another "I
don't understand where this is going. I'm still being 'worked on' still no
pain, still no 'Unity', lots of physical bliss and near constant brain
explosions with eye glazings." And another, "felt worked on felt pleasure
also heat, waves, tremors...awoke feeling tired but happy. waves and
explosions all day long."

I seem to remember other people over the years on the list having similar
experiences.

> When it's happening I know that it's K, and that I do not
> control it. I have to say, though, I wonder why. Why me? Is this all
> because I've been good? Or I need to be better? Or I've lived ten
> thousand
> lives and only have ten thousand more to go? (Please, not ten thousand
> more.) Am I anywhere close to graduating? And is it true, as it feels it
> may be, that the lives get harder the closer you get to graduation?

:)) Yeah! one of the first questions we ask *Why me*. I think it was
Susan who answered my query with, "Why *not* you?" LOL!

All we can do is realize whatever happens is for the best, no matter how
painful it appears to be at the time. Hard to have that faith, though,
sometimes.

> Coming off a couple of days of migraine and work stress, feeling fatigued
> and
> a bit whiney and sorry for myself this evening. Sorry. Thanks for
> listening.

I'm really sorry about the migraine. Those are *no* fun! Even when K is
blissful it is not an easy road!

Love, Hillary

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