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Recieved: 2002/05/16 10:27
Subject: [K-list] Fwd: Re: Neurology
From: James Anderson
On 2002/05/16 10:27, James Anderson posted thus to the K-list:
bhutanbodhi <bhutanbodhiATnospamyahoo.com> wrote: Date: Tue, 14 May 2002 20:30:33 -0000
From: "bhutanbodhi"
To: "shunyatauk"
Subject: Re: Neurology
> Last year I had(chose) to stop chanting because I was experiencing
> some ridiculous seizures that, to be very honest, scared the living
> shit out of me.
I just don't chant all that much, from some internal view that who
ever hears me or sees me, will discrimate and want me to explain to
the most minute detail what i'm doing, why am i doing, what's supposed
to happen when i do it. All i can say is taht i don't know when i
have been asked taht is. Now it's more a matter of feeling confident
with what i'm doing and expanding the realm of experience with
different tones and syllables. Definition still plays a minor role.
Sometime i wish i had a big horn that i could chant thru sometimes!
> I relaxed and let the 'thing' take over, I was presented with
certain
> visual and auditory 'insights' that were only ever once concluded.
> The rest I was to frightened to let the film play the reel, and had
> to force myself out of them; a very demanding and difficult thing to
> do, like pulling oneself out of a sea of liquid tar.
i feel that when i want to chant but the fear of having someone hear
me...is always present...at least still. It's just a matter of
reconditioning my response pattern.
> I went to the Dr, and all they could suggest was LSD flashbacks. At
> the time I thought I must have had a tumor or something biologically
> explainable.
This is where medical doctors and "witch" doctors meet face to face
and can't see who is who...subjective vs. objective really have
scarred many from reasonable diagnosises, i believe. I still don't
know what a "flashback" is, though maybe i just haven't done enough
acid. Same can't be said for mushroom though, but then that is
relative too i suppose, but i've never had a "flashback".
What i find really amazing is that how things in the medical community
work, there are all kinds of doctors (good and bad) that are
supposedly doing what they can to HELP, within the context of their
job description.
> It is tempting to remember them as sleeping experiences as I they
> happened in my bed, though I am as sure as sure could be that I was
> never asleep, only relaxing.
The mind rests on many levels, what they are and what is associated to
them i am not too sure, though i'm not one to memorize things, could
be one reason for my slow progression thru certain stages, i'm not too
sure, i can't afford a guru to let me know! Though the mistress has
been helpfull.
> I stopped them by closing myself up fo a fair while. Never did get
> to the bottom of it.
i close myself up all the time...to much. It's one of my many
defensive tactics, i seal up anything that might leak out and give
someone a reason to pick and point at me and my faults.
> Do you have 'visions' while they are happening, or what?
> Love and knowledge
> Shunyatuk
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