To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/05/09 07:15
Subject: [K-list] Aaron
From: shellelr
On 2002/05/09 07:15, shellelr posted thus to the K-list:
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., SoitPPATnospama... wrote:
> > >
> > for example Mystress, she's gone through so much, things I cannot
imagine
> really, on the same note, as great as she is in her field, as a
Kundalini
> Mystress of great import, she doesn't really know what a person
like me is
> all about, other than the catch-all big laws, like cause and effect
and
> surrenduring to Goddess, she can't relate. she's of an older
generation, as
> are many on list, sometimes I wonder if many of you would
understand why
> Autechre's latest or Aphex Twin's latest album is so beautiful.
It's no use
> trying to relate. Not even Aphex Twin relates completely. Of
course, she
> understands I'm immature, that much is obvious, but doesn't have
much of a
> clue about me beyond that,.. so although she can help guide me with
her whip,
> she can't really wink at me. And so far.. nobody can, not even the
kids in my
> generation fully understand me, I meet many enlightened souls
online, souls
> that in many ways, are far more advanced than me, I still hold
something over
> them, like a little piece of missletoe that says, Kiss me>
Aaron,
> > p.s. it's ok to hate a person like me, I deserve it, and you
deserve to feel
> the way you do, but if you can, try to see the good me, even if I
hide him
>
>
>
Aaron,
I'm pretty sure I'm of an older generation from you (age 38), and I
would still say that no one but me can fully understand the spiritual
thing that has happened to me. Music is a particular part of it and
it is too unique and strangely my own. There is plenty about it that
I have not bothered to share on this list because I doubt anyone
could relate to it. So I don't think the alienation you're feeling
is uniquely generational.
You deserve to be hated? Are you listening to yourself? Obviously
you are working through some shit. I did that in my early 20s.
You should save these letters in a box somewhere and reread them in
15 or 20 years (which will have passed for you by, say, tomorrow).
Hopefully you will have grown and changed so much by then that you
will hardly recognize the child that wrote them as being you, but you
will love him, a lot. And be grateful to him for the hard work that
he did.
love,
Shelle
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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