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Recieved: 2002/05/08 05:38
Subject: [K-list] last night... dream and childhood fear
From: Keith Chapman

Hello,
   I've heard that Kundalini slowly brings up the past so that you can
deal with it and release any negative connection to it. Well I just want
to share what happened to me last night to help me come to terms with
this.
   For the longest time as a kid I was afraid of aliens. When I would go
to sleep I usually would leave the light on, but I always would end up
convincing myself that something was in the room. Like I would hear a
shifting (probably just me in my bed) or something stupid like that. Well
last night I meditated like I usually do, but I felt the warm tingling and
my mind frame felt differently. I remember asking, "Is this it?" (I've
been trying to open my Kundalini) Well, I felt tingly, that's about the
most I ever feel but am very happy when I do. So I stopped meditating and
went to sleep, and I think I got a message of why it hasn't been allowed
to awaken in my dreams.
   I dreamt that I was lying on my bed (yeah I couldn't tell at points if
I was dreaming or not.... I think I was). And I opened my eyes and there
was a weird light form that I could see, and I knew that it wasn't
*physically* real. Well, instead of trusting Goddess I freaked... forgot
about grounding and just tried to make it go away. When I was a kid my
fear would keep me up, and I'd get so tired that at points I'd be o so
scared cause I thought I had heard something, but my eyes would be so
tired that I couldn't open my eyes or even move my body. Sheesh... this is
starting to sound like paralysis... only I never looked at it that way.
*holds head* But that is exactly what happened in my dream... I couldn't
move, couldn't wake up even... tried to move, tried to open my eyes... but
only with fear, and no trust or love. And that is why Kundalini hasn't
opened in me... Because when I'm put under pressure grounding and trust
goes out the window. But thankfully it has been brought up and I can put
attention to it, and if this type of fear/paralysis happens again, I will
try to remember to trust and enjoy the ride. Well, thank you for letting
me get this off my chest. *hugs*

Keith

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