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Recieved: 2002/05/05 16:32
Subject: [K-list] Mrs. kundalini
From: kalebket
On 2002/05/05 16:32, kalebket posted thus to the K-list:
I have been living with kundalini shakti for a number of years now,
and also trying to dialogue with her on various subject
matters...basically she really doesn't tell much in the way of
anything I ask...seems to be very secretive indeed. I am trying to
figure out if that is the way she treats everyone. Does anyone else
out there actively dialogue with kundalini and get any real
responses? Usually she will only spout my own beliefs back at me...I
have since pinned her down to that game and requested that she
not do that - so now she pretty much will not say anything -
although she interacts very lovingly with me in many ways and I
have much respect and devotional adoration towards her...I am
finding that I still feel like there could be something more to the
relationship....if I meditate she certainly helps me out in that arena,
and I of course appreciate that....and she truly is a companion and
friend that is always there -but I guess that I am trying to say that
the relationship is still very perplexing - I have never been so close
to another intelligent being and yet so far away - she is in me all
day in all kinds of ways - moving with me almost as one with me -
but my actual knowledge of her is limited - again she doesn't tell
me anything about herself - even to questions such as 'can I
improve our relationship?' 'what is your purpose?' or 'is there any
special goal that I can aim for in my relationship with you?' which
are met with silence - I guess I find it hard in my self to just let her
be and accept things as they are...my weakness and problem
perhaps - my addiction to knowing -but essentially I am looking for
new and improved ways to relate to her presence in me - and
finding no solutions between her and me I am seeking out in the
community - because I know that everyone has their own special
relationship with the kundalini, so i am trying to get some more
ideas - just for the hell of it....in all probability the best thing for me
to do would to not seek that which is offered to me, but knowing this
I seek anyways...so any ideas that people could share such as
goals, relationship styles, practices, etc. are appreciated.
Kaleb
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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