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Recieved: 2002/05/02 12:19
Subject: [K-list] sweet tempest and then...
From: Daniel Roussin
On 2002/05/02 12:19, Daniel Roussin posted thus to the K-list:
It was at dawn when the whole world is still and calm.
I looked through the window within myself and
saw it-him-her I like to call: One who has revealed my soul
manifesting its infinity through all the elements of nature
showing the splendor of its creative and destructive power.
Fear? of course there was at first and maybe was it terror
feeling like a tiny ant at the feet of a huge herd of elephants.
I was absolutely certain that it was the end of all.
The end of me, the end the world, "the end my friend".
Understanding at a cellular level what I had the priviledge
of being a part of I gladly surrendered my "I", my identity,
as I knew then that we already are an intrinsic part of something
so much greater, so much grander, so beautiful and infinately loving.
I would have gone to the extent to be glad to die then and there;
surely they would have found me with a tremendous grin of my face.
I ran outside as I needed to feel my bare feet on the bare earth.
With the years I realized that the world was not coming to an end (not
for the moment anyway) and here I still am but instead of black and
white and mono sound, it became technicolor and quadraphonic amplified.
I have been a musician since age 5 or was it in my mother's womb where I
could here my father play. Remaining illustriously unknown, I have been
composing for about 11 years now. I've been writing every type of music
and as I went on, rather than seeing this as versatility I thought I was
losing my identity. Now, what is left of my lifetime Ambitions are
flying away, evaporating and I don't even seem to mind at all. I thaught
when this sense of non-wanting entered that I was becoming disinterested
in what had always lit me up so passionately, my muse. I thaught the
chronic pain had gotten to me over the years and that either I was going
through a depression or gone just plain lazy. But, my morale seems to be
impossible to bother as it is connected to something unshakeable within
myself, even in moments of such great physical pain that I can't even
understand how a body can endure it at that level without collapsing;
sure there are signs, moments when the body is saying "I'm not sure I
can hold any longer", ... but I'm still here...
What a strange yet wonderful path it is!
Thank you so kindly for your time.
Peace and love in each moment,
Julie
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