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Recieved: 2002/04/29 18:33
Subject: [K-list] Kundalini story and questions for all
From: Grant -
On 2002/04/29 18:33, Grant - posted thus to the K-list:
Kundalini Gateway members;
Hello. I'm new to the list and in search of answers that I likely wont be
able to obtain by any other means. I've very recently began what will likely
be a long and gratifying journey, starting with self-education of yogic
practices. The topic of Kundalini energy especialy itnerests me. I'm not
even quite sure if this message will get through to the participants so I'll
limit myself to only a couple questions.
Firstly, I have heard a barrage of opinions and read countless articles /
books on the subject (including a very good book written by a Guru in the
philipines who passed it on to my mother). One thing that I am unsure of is
the necessity or importance of Shaktipat, or Guru Initiation. I've come to
see it as a 'safer' method of awakening the Kundalini, as the Guru is
suposedly able to guide your rising energy by releasing blockages in Chakras
or Nadis. I've also heard that although it is a shorter path, less desirable
seeing as you may not develop the necessary skills in meditation, pranayama
etc. Please lend me your thoughts on this subject. If their are particular
positive or negative effects of chosing either path I would like to know.
On the side I would also like to toss in the question of finding a means of
Shaktipat. Living now in North America (Canada specifically) away from the
Philipines, India or even the Yogic Centers of United States, I'm not sure
what my options are, if any. =)
Moving on, I would like to briefly describe a strange happening in hopes
some of you are able to clearly identify the experience as Kundalini related
or not.
In recent years but before knowledge or practice of Yogic Arts I decided to
make several rather large lifestyle changes. Without going into detail I'll
just note a few major points. Introspectiveness, extreme attention to health
and food intake, daily meditation (although at the time i didnt think of it
as 'meditation') and the need of constant and intense mental / intellectual
stimulation. The lifestyle has been a permanent change since then. Anyways,
not too long ago I experienced a few strange events.
***START STORY
Without any purpose or goal of doing so I would daily go to my room, which
is a sort of fortress of solitude for me, and sit or lay on my bed or beside
it, where I would simply 'be'. I would just be there. Thats it. Just "be".
Slowly I would 'remove the chatter from my mind', but not in a straining
effort enduced way. Following that my breath would become increasingly
subtle and almost nonexistant. One day while doing this I was pushed into a
state of wakefulness (like being slapped for dosing off in church?) yet I
lay as motionless and breathless as moments ago. My body was completely out
of my grasp. Frozen and immobile in every sense. Even my eyelids wouldnt
move despite my efforts. Frighteningly I could not hear my heartbeat, and I
don't believe I was even breathing, or both were so subtle I could not
notice them. Interestingly, although my eyelids were nearly shut (not
completly) I had a full view of my surroundings as if i were not peering
through holes in my head (eyes) but instead looking out from the top. After
a few moments of this somewhat frightening immobility and awareness, I began
to feel increasingly strong 'buzzing' sensations through my spine, which is
what now makes me wonder of the connection to Kundalini energies. The high
frequency vibration continued and grew, especially within my head. In fact I
remember on one occassion which was the strongest of them all, my toungue
stretched and made strange movements within my mouth without my doing so.
Every time at about that point, with the buzzing strong in my head, I would
become so frightened my heart rate would increase and I would gradually
resume normal breathing as the buzzing slowly died and left.
If I attempted to return to this state, it took nearly no effort. Only a few
moments of 'clearing the chatter from the mind' again. Most times I became
concerned and got up from my resting place and went to do something active
or something to make my body and mind feel more 'full of chatter'.
***END STORY
(note at this time I had no knowledge of anything Yoga or Kundalini related)
Was this at all related to a Kundalini awakening, or the start of one? could
it be some other completely non-kundalini issue altogether? Insantiy? :) If
anyone has any thoughts at all I would be appreciative.
Since that time I have felt subtle sensations that are parallel to some of
those described by others who've been awakened. These include cool winds
especially above the head or near hands. Tingling or buzzing. Surge up the
spine. Strange heat sensations. Large blue spheroid stuck in my head that I
can't look directly at... but I digress.
Thanks for you time.
Grant Speer.
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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