To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/04/17 13:53
Subject: Re: [K-list] Help
From: kat
On 2002/04/17 13:53, kat posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Jennifer, nice to meet.
I want you to know that this is the first email I recieved after joining
this list, and your relating of your experiences was my first real
connection to the possibility of my own K rising.
> Yet I can't seem to function in the "real" world
> anymore. I'm completely on my own, used to earn decent money and have now
> blown through my savings, am essentially destitute and about to loose my
> apartment. There is no way I can go back to my past work life. Haven't a
> clue as to how to proceed as I am completely burnt out.
This was/is me for the last couple of years. Last summer I lost a house I
loved, then a few months later an apartment I loved. I went broke, burnt out
and was quite sure I had gone crazy. I had never heard of Kundalini.
The parallel at the time for me was/is stones/crystals and energy movement.
I have been walking in the light of energy manipulation since I was about 7.
Now that I am taking Paxil and can distinguish between my feelings and
follow events without so much trouble, I can see that for every
energy/crystal event I undertake, I have a burn out or psycotic event for.
The greater the magic, the greater the responsibility, so it is said. I am
not advocating taking RX for what you are feeling, but for me, at the time,
I needed help. I didn't know a thing about Kundalini.
>energy running like water through me
this happens to me too. It was only the other night that I realized what was
going on. I had made up all kinds of things about what it was. I have a
friend who has been training himself to be sensitive to energy. (He will no
doubt eventually pipe up and say hello to you all) I asked him the other
night, 'what do you feel in my hand?' He said, 'a tingling.' Big sigh of
relief, if he can feel it then it is not me going crazy. Guess my charge is
so strong it comes right out through my skin.
> inability to sleep at night,
Yes sleepless or sleeping constantly with no rythme or reason.
>having energy
> waves hit like electric power surges
Almost knocked me on my feet many times.
big weight gain,
first a huge weightloss then a weight gain. Changes in eating habits that I
didn't really have any control of.
> a ray of energy
> (which I can sometimes see, any insight on this would > be most welcome
btw)
I have been able to see energy movements since I was about 7. That sounds
like what you maybe seeing. If you haven't read Celestine Prophecy by James
Redfield, please do so now. It will help you to understand what you are
seeing and gain a bit of control over it. You will be amazed what those of
us who can see energy moving, can see.
> (This
> could easily turn into a rant.
Rant away, you help yourself and probably others while doing it.
> How about blowing out lamps and
> lightbulbs?
> Four in a row is my best run yet.
Nope, can't do that one.
> See your chakras and have meditation
> experiences without meditating? Me too!)
again, Celestine Prophecy
> I try mightily not to talk about it anymore, except to a >few good
friends
Talk, talk, talk, and more talk. Or you might clog up your throat chakra
which can be a very uncomfortable situation, especially when you finally
clear it. Ask me, I know. Experience.
>In fact one of
> them didn't want to work with me as he felt he couldn't >deal with the
> energy coming off me - his words.
Cool, another electric being, as my friend Nut (nubian priestess) calls me.
Nice to meet you. Hope our journey continues on the same path for a time.
Disclaimer: These are just my experiences, use what you like and throw the
rest out. These things happened to me without any knowledge of Kundalini. I
learned the K term a month ago.
Peace and Love
Kat
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/kindex.htm
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