To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/04/13 12:19
Subject: Re: [K-list] Help
From: siska
On 2002/04/13 12:19, siska posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Jennifer - I'm sorry you're having a lousy time of it. You're not alone
though - it can be highly dramatic stuff for some....
Yet I can't seem to function in the "real" world
> anymore. I'm completely on my own, used to earn decent money and have now
> blown through my savings, am essentially destitute and about to loose my
> apartment. There is no way I can go back to my past work life. Haven't a
> clue as to how to proceed as I am completely burnt out.
- yes I went though all this - burn out, ditching my career, my flat,
leaving London - going abroad to I knew not where... having a breakdown, no
money, no home, the loony bin etc etc ... Give it time and try to be
patient and trust and have faith. Your system is going through a massive
massive reconstruction and it's ain't gonna happen overnight. Took me six
years to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But please trust - there
is a profound inner process at work that knows EXACTLY what it's doing and
in time you'll look back and see that the rewards you'll get will make all
the upheaval worth it and MORE, MUCH MORE. You can't see it now - don't
even try. Just go with the flow and FOLLOW YOUR INTUITION - that's the best
guide possible.
Attempting to
> function while (this is the short list) seeing "things" zip around the
> room, feeling other's emotions, energy running like water through me,
> inability to sleep at night, chakras open and/or spinning, having energy
> waves hit like electric power surges, big weight gain, a ray of energy
> (which I can sometimes see, any insight on this would be most welcome btw)
> hitting my big left toe and spreading throughout etc, etc, etc... (This
> could easily turn into a rant. How about blowing out lamps and
lightbulbs?
> Four in a row is my best run yet. See your chakras and have meditation
> experiences without meditating? Me too!)
Others might disagree but I'm dump the meditation or anything like that.
It's just adding petrol to the fire.
> I try mightily not to talk about it anymore, except to a few good friends
> and transpersonal shrinks which I can't afford anymore anyway and often
> make me feel like their own personal science experiment. In fact one of
> them didn't want to work with me as he felt he couldn't deal with the
> energy coming off me - his words.
Talk to people here - many of us have been through it in one way or another.
Thank God for the net. It wasn't there for me in my times of need....
Hang on in there Jennifer - AMAZING things await I promise. Try to grin and
bear it - it'll calm down, it always does eventually.
Love
siska.
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