To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/04/06 21:31
Subject: RE: [K-list] looking through things
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/04/06 21:31, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 03:59 PM 06/04/02, Rich wrote:
>[Jaw drops].... Oh!
>
>I feel as if I have intruded - please excuse me!
No prob.
> > When I write, channelling for people, I spend hours looking from
> > the Witness and transmitting what I see through typing fingers...
>and it
> > is when I am done, that I come back to feeling the body and
>discovering it
> > is stiff and sore eyes from being immobile staring at the computer
>for hours.
>
>I get the same typing lines of computer code (LOL) ...... I'm totally
>engrossed in it to the point where time doesn't seem to exist anymore -
>I forget about the rest of me! However I don't think I could be further
>from 'the Witness' state - almost like opposite ends of the spectrum -
>one completely engrossed - the other completely detached.
I think both are a kind of OBE.. it is like I go into the computer.
> > Not surprisingly, I am finding myself less willing to abandon my
>body to
> > serve the needs of other people.
>Yes! I got the impression... Goddess hates to be tied down too long
>LOL... Any longstanding restriction or control I have seemed to be
>shaken up by k coming round to hit me later in some shape or form.
Right... delete all attachments.. :)
>For
>me.... repetitive behaviours no matter how subtle seem to become
>engrained in the body/mind forming habits - I need to be careful where I
>allow my attention to stick and stay more present. Maybe this is part of
>the process - to keep up and adapt with a moving target. To keep
>surrendering all the time.
All the time... but the process gets more autopilot with time.
> > Last Dec. I decided to attach to peace within myself instead of
>playing
> > hero to everybody's drama. Last Jan an aspect of myself decided peace
>was
> > boring, and left.
>
>They almost seem like opposites.... If one is in total peace I don't
>think it's possible to be bored (even an archetype) ..... Maybe you
>stopped giving it the energy it wanted and it had to move on.
I dunno what the hell she was, or where she got to. Sure was powerful
tho. The kind of power archetypes tend to have.
> > it seemed like perfection to me, so I did not give it any attention. just
> > not interested in analyzing it.
>
>I feel a difference from you.... It feels like you have become emptiness
>and not assuming a role. I don't know how grounded this is or if it is
>some illusionary state..... I don't think that even matters anymore to
>you right now. Like having a vacation from existing maybe :o)
I like being nothing. :)
>I realised this later .... there was a lot going on behind the
>scenes.... Charles created the platform for me to unwind off all this
>stuff..... my behaviour was well out of order and out of line with my
>usual character .... you certainly broke me free of a big illusion I was
>caught up in..... I'm still extremely grateful and respectful of what
>you did. As you say Goddess provides. The manifestations *are*
>miraculous (but also should be let to pass).
yep... old news. :) I never did respond to tell Charles what I got
out of it... so now I have.
> > I find it better not to pay much attention to that kind of stuff,
>these
> > days. Shrug, laugh, don't care.
>
>Yep... the learning and the experiences can become further
>attachments.... Great attitude!
Exactly so... especially when people get caught up in trying to
recreate past experiences.
>Right I don't think I'm going to spend quite so much time on this list
>now either - off to go and *feel* some life for a change! Will see how
>goddess directs me....
Yeah, get a life! LOL!! Have fun, Rich... Blessings!
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