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Recieved: 2002/03/25 08:43
Subject: Re: [K-list] Starting again
From: Silverstar
On 2002/03/25 08:43, Silverstar posted thus to the K-list:
Mystress Angelic,
Thank you so much for your wonderful email! I will start my week with new
anticipation for the new body I am becoming! I have loved my awakening
experience, but I know I would have loved it even more if I had you as a
cheerleader!
Hmmm, Maybe karma isn't looking so bad afterall! :)
Thanks for the wonderful Monday Morning Words! Warmly, Sue
Subject: Re: [K-list] Starting again
> At 01:32 AM 25/03/02, Rhianna Amdal wrote:
> > Did any of you experience this? Do you
> >still experience this? My body feels like it is going
> >out of control again, and I have to use much energy to
> >keep control,
>
> Rhianna, have you ever tried just letting the energy do what it wants?
> You will wear yourself out trying to control it, and your effort to
control
> it is the source of your problems. If you just relax and allow the
> movements, they pass... and as you have observed, the K. process has made
> you a better person. So, why not trust it? Really, this energy is wise and
> it knows what it is doing.
>
> You wear yourself out, trying to swim against the current. Stop, relax
> and go with the flow. When you had children, did you learn Lamaze? Apply
> Lamaze to K. Breathe, hold onto your touchstone and ride it out without
> fighting.
>
> >it's a feeling as if parts want to twist
> >and shake all the time.
>
> These movements are not at all mysterious. Your body has its own
> wisdom, and it is doing what it needs to do, to get your very precious
life
> energy to flow through you better.
> The twitches and shakes are unconsciously held stress, releasing. Old
> fear, old pain and scars. Your body wants to twist and stretch to help the
> stress release.
>
> The Kundalini is trying to clear your body and heal you, shape you
into
> the manifestation of your true potential.
>
> So, the method feels kind of weird sometimes but you have to surrender
> and let it win. You only get beat up, if you fight. If you struggle for
> control, then you get into an argument with your body... and as you
> discovered, it can be very stubborn. It has to win, your life is at stake
> and it loves you more than you can even try to love yourself.
>
> K. is often called the Mother Goddess. You are a mother, you know you
> have to do what is best for your children even if they resist, scream and
> cry. It is your responsibility to be stronger then them... and so it is
> with K.
>
> The body speaks in the language of metaphors... what you put out comes
> back multiplied. You tried to stop the K., it stopped you. Breath is
> symbolic and literally, life energy. K. is life energy. You tried to
> restrict it, and that showed up literal... not being able to breathe.
> It was trying to get you to stop fighting, to give up! Surrender means
> give up, and that is what you have to do. Stop struggling for control and
> let the energy do what it needs to do.
>
> If you look back, the process was blissful until you got scared and
> started fighting it. If you would like it to be blissful again, stop
fighting.
>
> Sure it will be scary sometimes. Life is scary sometimes. Face your
> fear, let it go and then it is gone, and you are better off without it. It
> is only showing up because it is saying goodbye on its way out.
>
> > If this continues, I can't
> >even join this list. And that would be a loss, because
> >I have found it very useful to read what you have to
> >share. But it starts everything again.
>
> Your K. will always start up when you are around other awakened
people.
> Even through cyberspace. There are several hundred awakened people on this
> list. Awakened people are everywhere.
> Are you going to spend the rest of your life running away from all the
> kind, spiritual people whom you would probably most like to know? What
kind
> of life would that be?
> It is starting again... yes, once it starts it must keep going until
> the job is done, and by fighting you are really only prolonging your own
> misery.
>
> You are not helpless. There is one thing you can do. Change your
> attitude.
>
> I get the symptoms you describe. Shaking, sure.. sometimes my body
> wanting to do spontaneous streches and yoga. Short term catatonia where my
> body is immobile and my mind is very alert. Sometimes my body
spontaneously
> stops breathing for a while... but I usually do not notice until I start
> again, with a sigh... or I notice someone is looking at me with concern.
So
> what? It is not uncommon among awakened people. Just another of the little
> miracles.
>
> I like em! I like them so much I sometimes take on karma stuff from
> other people just to feel again, the amazing things my body does to clear
> it right out and keep me whole and healthy. The more I go with the flow
of
> what the body wants, the better my whole life gets.
>
> I know you are getting a charge from this post, because sometime after
> I started writing to you, I noticed getting shaky and my head is making
> little twitches to the left. My energy working to clear the stiff neck
> stubornness of creeped out fear that is yours. Not mine.
> I am twiching. So what? No biggie. Not unusual, or the least bit
worrying.
>
> I stop, relax and surrender to it, just letting it happen. Two minutes
> of twitching and it is gone from me. My head is still. Hands are still a
> little shaky but shortly I will be off to bed. I will lie flat and let the
> day's events pass through my mind, and feel all the little reactions as
my
> body releases anything that does not serve me. Heals me of the days wear
> and tear... Blessed be!
>
> Including some of the stuff I got back because it was stirred up in
> you by the focus of my attention and the emotions that are triggered by my
> words... through time. All those little reactions you try to control, I
> relax and enjoy feeling. It is love. It is the body's self healing
> mechanism kicking in. It is a gift!!
>
> Kundalini is the body and the soul working together to turn the body
> into a temple of the soul. To do that, it has to clear you. All the old
> fear has to go. The process of clearing can have some pretty weird
symptoms
> but they pass. With every twitch and every shaking spell, you become more
> whole. Eventually, they pass... and you remain. A new, happier more loving
> you.
>
> It is coming up again, as it must, inevitably. It will be different,
if
> you respond to it differently.
> One thing that is different, is that you have found a community of
> people who understand what you are talking about, who have experience with
> the process to reassure you that you are not crazy. People to support you,
> and hold your hand as you go through the labour pains of giving birth to a
> new Self.
> It is your call... :) Blessings!
>
>
>
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