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Recieved: 2002/03/19 16:40
Subject: [K-list] Personality Changes Poll
From: isis robins-shaw

Poll question:

Do you feel that you have had a change in personality since you started
feeling Kundalini energy?

Hmmmmn... Well, disorientation, fear, feelings of "otherness," past-life memories. I guess I feel sorry for myself in a way I haven't before. I feel slightly victimized, something that I would not like to admit (even to myself). I think if there was a change in my personality, it would be that I feel less joyful, less willing to do things around people, often depressed, and all around dulled.
I feel overwhelmed by information that I feel like I can't necessarily trust as truth, since truth in its totality- keeps showing itself as something I will never understand.

What changes have you, or others around you, felt.

People think I am "old" now, (and I don't mean the positive aspects of growing older.) They feel like I am constantly having a hard time. I attribute my attitude partially to my surroundings because my husband has held a negative approach to "Kundalini" for me. It was when I met him that I even heard of the word and after I did research into the idea, I realized that was what had been happening to me.

Do you feel they have been positive or negative.

I feel like my family and friends have been doubtful of my experience and wanted to label it as something negative because I wasn't enjoying the process. They wanted to know the end result of my "suffering" and I couldn't tell them. I think their conclusion was if she can't tell me it's a good thing and why- then it must be a bad thing.

I'm feeling quite negative at the moment since my life is being turned upside down- again. Overall I have the feeling that this is a tremendous experience and I would like to hold myself in relationship to it in a way that I feel empowered and not just like a wierdo. For the last 2 years my journey with K has been to embrace it as a gift and be able to have this gift and still function in the world. I feel like my general experience of it as of late has just been so challenging. We'll see. In a year I could feel like this is the best thing that has ever happened!

Thanks for doing this poll! It's a great idea!
Isis

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