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Recieved: 2002/03/19 08:59
Subject: [K-list] just sharing........
From: Mia
On 2002/03/19 08:59, Mia posted thus to the K-list:
Hi everybody....:-)
what do i do when K-energy is too strong to focus on work?
Tell you a little bit about what is going on and hope, somebody can get
something out of it:
Some days ago.....actually it was the New Moon last Thursday........ a
little shock in my business life woke me up, was shaking me out of my
routine and forced me to make a move. I tried to hold on to my old patterns,
but there was gap...... i tried to act from the " autopilot" function of my
personality, but all of a sudden something in me said: WAAAAAIIIIT a
minute........
i felt detached to my old personality and i was able to at least think
differently. The old prison of what i am and how i'm behaving and reacting
was not functioning properly any longer.
It seemed, i was able to use resources, i perhaps would be able to do
things, i never thought i would be able to. I found a whole pile of dogma
that had kept me prisoner. There was a part of me that had made me believe,
on a spiritual path you have to be poor, you are not supposed to make money,
you are not supposed to have more than what you need. Money is dirty,
possessions possess you......... getting a lot of money means that's the
level you are on.......
and there was also my Venus in opp. to Saturn in my birth chart telling me
that giving is fine, but receiving is not possible. TAKING money means, you
are worth it......i also felt there was a connection between money and
corruption and power, that i didn't want to touch. I constantly gave
power=money away.....
let others deal with it.... i refused to " touch" it and got it back into my
face again and again.........
now there was this possibility to " solve" this whole issue...... not right
away...... but there seemed to be a chance.
But i was still worried and suspicious about it ...... like an animal that
was in the cage for too long and even when the cage door opens, the animal
keeps sitting in the cage....... not really believing.........
i can see now that money is a tool and has no good or bad attached to it. I
can also see that if i don't attach myself to money or possessions, i can
have millions and it doesn't mean anything........If $1 is able to make me a
slave of poverty, a million dollars will make me a slave of being
rich......if i'm not attached to possessions or money, the amount doesn't
make a difference.......
but was this only something i was thinking, or was it really " happening"?
The night after New Moon i dreamed the following: I had carried something
big and heavy on my back. I had carried it for so long, it had become part
of my body and was covered by my skin. But " all of a sudden" it had
disappeared, dissolved and only the skin that had covered it up was hanging
on my back, open on one side, but attached to the other side of my body as
if it's still my skin. The piece of skin hanging there was as big as my
whole back, but there was new skin already where the wound had been, so this
huge part of skin was just hanging there. In my dream i was going to several
doctors and asked them to get rid of the old skin part. Nobody seemed to be
sure, whether they could just cut it off, because it's " useless", or
whether it still contains blood vessels and nerves and is still part of my
body.
I wasn't sure either. Is it over, or is it not?????
Finally a young ( female) doctor just started cutting and it didn't hurt me
at all, i wasn't attached to it any longer.......
YEEPEEEEEE!
last night i dreamed about marrying myself. I was the bride, i was creating
my own dress, picked the flowers and the veil and the jewelry......
there was nobody else around and nobody else necessary......
it was a very nice dream and i'm still smiling......
thanks for listening
love to all
mia
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