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Recieved: 2002/03/19 07:57
Subject: [K-list] Hi, I'm new to the list and thought I should introduce myself.
From: chenandr
On 2002/03/19 07:57, chenandr posted thus to the K-list:
Hello, I'm joining your list because I appear to have had a Kundalini
experience and want to know more about how to deal with it.
I have done hatha yoga on and off throughout my life. Presently I am
still practicing hatha yoga. I recently got certified to teach it.
Here's the story of my kundalini experience and ensuing medical
difficulties (sexual content deleted). Any advice would be
appreciated.
On a Friday morning I was talking to a Turkish friend and she told me
about Kundalini. She told me the technique she used for awakening it,
which was essentially just bringing awareness to the very base of the
spine (the region between the anus and genitals, actually) while in a
relaxed state and alternately contracting and relaxing the muscle
there.
Not really believing whether it would work or not, that evening I
decided to try it. It was like she described it - more pleasurable
than an ordinary physical orgasm - but only lasted just as long.
The next morning I realized that there was probably no reason to need
to do all that bringing of awareness and contracting and relaxing the
muscle - that I could probably just have that same experience again
if I chose to. So I did. It was incredibly wonderful and blissful
initially. Everything was pleasing in a sexual way, but I wasn't
"horny" - that is, I didn't have any sexual desire - I was just
appreciating the pleasingness of everything in a sexual way.
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Let's just say it was painful after a few-hour experience and I
didn't especially like the fact it had gotten painful.
About a month later I accidentally banged the right side of my head
against a door.
About a month after that I visited a doctor because the headache from
the banging against the door appeared to have come back. The doctor
had no idea that anything was wrong and suggested I monitor it and
see when it comes and goes and look for a precipitating factor.
During the next week or two my headache seemed to subside to almost
unnoticable levels (if I was lying my my right side after waking and
before getting up in the morning I would notice it slightly). (I and
my mother naturally have headaches more frequently than most people
(usually due to poor lighting, as our eyes are very sensitive) - I am
only talking about the headache that felt like when my head hit that
door here.)
After that I got a very bad backache all of a sudden. Thinking it was
maybe due to my posture and/or habits (wearing a backpack, etc...) I
tried to modify those. There was a little bit of an improvement.
A few weeks after that, on October 6 (my birthday) I decided I would
try out a hot tub (first time in my life in one). There was
disclaimer that said "my cause nausea, dizzyness, or fatigue". After
I got out of the hot tub (I was in it for one hour), when I was in
the shower afterwards, I collapsed and vomitted.
A few days later I came down with uncontrollable fatigue. I was so
tired, lethargic, and unenergized about everything. I'm a Ph. D.
student and have completed all my coursework, so the only things I
really had to do was continue with my jobs - the fatigue basically
forced me to put my research (for my Ph. D.) on hold.
That was probably in November. In december the fatigue seemed to have
gotten better when I contemplate the idea of changing research topic
for my Ph. D., so arguably I was just fatigued because I didn't
really like that topic as much (there have been some recent changes
in the field that make the potential impact of my research much less,
and there have also been some unexpected setbacks too).
My backache has come and gone since then - not nearly as bad as
before, but still noticable - arguably this is because I've started
wearing my backpack again - but it is much lighter now (only
containing a few papers, one small book, an umbrella, and
miscellaneous other light things).
The backache is amazingly close to the alleged location in the body
of kudalini energies (near the base of the spine).
I've been to the doctor for the backache - they thought it was likely
muscular and I slept the wrong way or something. I've also seen the
doctor for the fatigue. They ran some blood tests. My thyroid might
be slightly underactive, but the doctor doesn't think this is enough
to cause my symptoms and so says it must be due to stress in my life.
My parents think the Ph. D. is the cause of my stress. They think I
should just learn how to manage the stress and see a psychological
counselor. The mere idea that I might be stressed was news to me -
although I suppose at an unconscious level I might be.
Anyway, I've changed topics for my Ph. D. and things are going a bit
better
I visited http://kundalini-info.org/breath.html and corresponded with
the author a bit, who basically suggested that I try to not awaken
the Kundalini forces any more than I already had.
It's not working. So I figured I should try to get a variety of
opinions on the subject.
Thanks in advance for your responses.
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