Greetings,

Lately I have been seeing extraterrestial beings around my bed at night
touching me, giving me some kind of healing it feels like and doing
something with my scull. I had a an headache for about three days after it
felt like they pushed something into my scull, it didn't hurt but it was a
great pressure. I was just wondering if you have any idea of where they
could come from? And do you have any suggestions of what I could do? I have
tried to make contact but I don't get any clear answers, though I feel great
love and security from them.
Also alot of childhood memories have been coming up, that I might have felt
them being around me since I was born. Pieces of the puzzle coming into
places. Also tried to make a regression on my own, and I saw a picture of,
what felt like me, with big black eyes and black hair walking in some kind
of beautiful nature, collecting something for an experiment, I think. I also
felt my mom being there somehow.
Never really felt good in my life here on Tellus, remembering how cruel it
felt just to think that it was right to have an ego and act like the ones on
the outside of me, I thought my surroundings was the truth when I grow up.
It hurted, bad. But I am now very thankful for everything I have created for
my best to learn. When I was about 13 years old I started to abusing alchol
wich later became a heavy drug abuse. I am now 18. (by the way, I am from
Sweden trying to write down my thoughts in english ;)
(every school doctor said I was just fine physically, diagnosing me with
psychic diseases instead)
In and out at the school medicine "normal doctors" in a society point of
view , my body was often very ill and I was almost afraid of people and my
social mask I had to put on when I was out. It hurted, so bad. Although it
was my thoughts causing this not really knowing what was right or wrong.
Still very confused but everything is getting clearer and I now listen to
heart. All I need :)
Uhm, about 2 years ago, I was lead to a homeopathist (nature doctor) I was
really depressed and also sick very often, having heavy anxiety attacks
occasionally. Thoughts of death and so on. Also tried to comit suicide,
though I don't think I really wanted to die. Many out of body experiences
during the anxiety attacks wich I thought was time to me to leave my body.
Don't know quite how to explain all my experiences with word but, I just try
to write this letter so you can see a little of it. He diagnosed my Iris,
and told me that I have never ever been happy in my whole life as Åsa, wich
made me feel warm inside and think wow, this person is seeing what I feel.
He and his wife is from the Pleiadians to come here to help people, I've
heard. Well, I felt great love from them and I am still going to him
cleansing my body from heavy metals, especially mercury, wich Lasse is a
specialist in here in Sweden, he has treated a very big amount of mercury
poisonings.
I have been drug free for about a year now, though smoked marijuana
sometimes trying to flee from my self, although it don't work cause now I
get sick and confused if I use any drugs at all, even caffeine sugar and
such.
Uhm, just wanted to say thank you to all the people on this list, it is very
nice to read your letters.

Love,
A.s.a.