To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/02/19 13:55
Subject: [K-list] Re: love and emotions.....
From: Soitpp
On 2002/02/19 13:55, Soitpp posted thus to the K-list:
In a message dated 2/19/02 7:37:00 AM Mountain Standard Time,
K-list writes:
> "Queen
> of alien hybrids"
LoooLlll ... Alloya makes a better queen of alien hybrids than you LoL
> Hanging out on the list will quiet it down.
I HOPE SO, that's why I stuck around, I need you all to bash me over the
head.. I won't tell you what I think my title is.. I'm trying to get rid of
it anyways.. lol you don't wanna know what I think about myself it's pretty
bad
*;P
> oldest serpent from Genesis and I would be the one
> to judge souls at the ending times...
If you ask me , and you didn't .. you're close, but I think Alloya has got
you on that one.. d'oh
stupid title crap
(hmmm... but you're... oh nevermind)
Judge the souls at the end times... wow that guy was on CRACK, did you make
sure to smack him?
> went flying off to some interesting
> places with that one, till I gave my head a shake.
> Funny how many entities think that flattery will get them everywhere.
> That one's name was "Zarcon". Silly, eh?
like me eh.. lame.. :( *sigh* I can't help it, I don't resonate really,
sort of.. I just want some fun,
LOL I'm glad getting ignored doesn't bother me as much anymore, if y'all
responded to me I would be dissapointed in you
> Why was it unsettling? Did it dampen your sense of specialness?
> You are special just like we all are! LOL!!
> Welcome to the list... thanks for sharing! Blessings...
that's the best I've ever felt ;)
NOOOOOOOO not that, dammit, THIS, yeesss..
> BUT according to the Bible, there's more to the story--a twist in
> the
> plot. THE HUMAN FAMILY IS FALLEN—separated from God! So, rejoice
> in
> your "connectedness" all you like, folks—but that
> don't make you
> automatically GOD, or even connected to him! IT maybe makes you
> connected-to-each-other-but-STILL-fallen-and-sinful (separated-from-
> God), human beings!
>
> Your mission: to search for him and reconnect with Him again. Your
> life and efforts are best spent, not striking out into the untracked
> wilderness and trying to cut your own path, but in seeking and
> finding the Path he has already sent his firstborn Son to tread
> before you and mark for your benefit. And I'm not talking about going
> to some church; I'm talking about something much deeper.
DID YOU EVER SEE THAT TIME OLD DIRTY BASTARD TIED UP THE CLOWN
I couldn't think of something better to say..
grrrrrrrrrrrr...
> What happens when
> you have 6 billion people and each one has his own "truth"?
> Whose "truth" is true? Is it just the guy who shouts the loudest?
> Maybe it's the guy with more guns than everyone else?
Are you shouting loud enough?
> at the end of every post, because I MEAN it. I love you all.
>
> I really, really do.
Go screw yourself, I mean it, I really do.
> Yes! Emotional love happens in duality, and it is generally a
> combination of two emotions... love plus need, love plus jealously, love
> plus possessiveness, love plus need for approval or validation.
Is that really all you define as emotion? Now I KNOW you feel GREAT about
NOTHING, I call that emotions, that other sticky stuff should be called
something else, like, GARBAGE maybe
> OH, GAWD!!! No shit! Oh, the stories I could tell... like how the
> woman I threw out of my life 4 years ago because her provocation drove me
> to the point of homicidal visions of throwing her down the stairs, wrote a
> play last fall about it called "Driving Mistress Crazy"... a comedy, no
> less!! Then phoned me last week to tell me in a strident voice about how
> she has CHANGED, and she has PEACE in her heart and I am the one with the
> problem. My problem is that my body gets post traumatic stress symptoms
> around her... sigh. I will know she really has changed, when she stops
> disrespecting my clearly and oft repeated request for her to leave me
alone...
Oh GAWD!! I can see it NOW.. she's calling you up to tell you how much PEACE
she has in her heart. Oh wait.
That has nothing to do with my life. FUnny being a faerie isn't it. I don't
even call or consider myself a "faerie" (just another dumb title anyways)
but being naked and fancy free and having spritey wings that go
BZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!FFFFFFF sure is like me. Oh well
I'm liking this human incarnation a great ::::::::montor goes out:::::::::
alright I'll just shut up again (no that wasn't me, it really does have a
short in the wire, it just happens right on time is all)
I'm only acting this way because there ARE NO KID LISTS TO BE ON.. dang it..
and you older folks just don't get it.. *sigh*
> Or about the FST student last month, who was horribly jealous of my
> vibe after feeling it in a private session, and so decided to take a short
> cut and bomb me with so much of her stuff via private mail, it sent me
> ing into psychosis for weeks and I had to hire another healer to put
> me back together again.
Oooooh... Poor mystress you don't deserve that... I'm just going to ...
not do that. I won't attract..
*sigh*
I won't have to heal anymore. I won't have to. I'll do fine. I'll be s..
I used to try to be perfect.. now I'm just screwing up on purpose because I
want to pick your brains, bugg you a little
> Mostly I give up, or I tell them what unconditional love really is.
You TELL them? You don't TELL them,.. you know that You don't tell them
anything. I don't open my mouth. I've been opening my big fat mouth around
here tho for sure. Just to poke the fire a little. It's not working. But I am
getting my point across, even if it's muffled and garbled.
no no no no no no..
I really just want to shake your hand, no not you mystress..
:::grumble:::
>the communication becomes so difficult ......
>i often feel, i can much easier communicate with a dolphin or a tree, with
>the wind or the universe than i can with " normal" people.......
ACTUALLY
you can communicate with (ab)"normal" people just the same way you do with
trees and dolphins. Just keep in mind if that tree or dolphin was incarnated
as a human they'd have an ego. And what's the matter with that? All you need
to do is stop your need to have them at your level and simply... simply
communicate with their diva. Talk to their diva. It's there. You can see it,
even if they can't. You can see the beauty of them that they cannot. You
don't have to say anything at all!
I betcha can have a little discretion and not shaktify the heck out of them.
Oh, I know that's hard, you guys are on fire. It'll prolly be hard for me
too.
"I say I know how but I don't"
I don't know how "it'll be" the less I imagine such stupid things the better
off I am. and I know that one for sure.
> > At one point
> > he was eating something like 40lbs of sugar cane every day
.
GOD!~! How come I can't help but think how STUPID everyone is. That
wouldn't ever happen to me, and if it did. Then
YES INDIGOS ARE VERY FUCKING BORED
> The Simpsons is brilliant!!
> Blessings...
oh well we all LOVE derranged humor (no, really)
But I love the simpsons, but I'd love to give mat groening a nice SLAP in the
face, hypocritical anus, he oughta be licking southparks toes, He turns
southpark off in his house! WHY? Because he wants a bite, but not the whole
friggen enchilada.
You might think I'm a jerk.
well.. uhhh.. I am.. d'oh
You saw me before. I got tired of acting perfect. I'm just going to be messy
until someone stops me. Come on people. There's gotta be a spark of the
indigo glow in you somewhere.
I think I'm trying to force you guys into medicating me with the bad shit...
so I can figure out where I stand here. No not really. So you can figure out
where I stand here. and then we can have a real conversation. And I want to
have a real interaction.. that would be fun.
But hey, it's just online anyways. Doesn't compare online. Real life is
so much more important (duh, what a dumb thing to say)
> It is called being human, Bryan. Dump the pedestal and join the human
> race... I do mean that kindly... been there done that! Gets lonely, don't
it?
> blessings...
LONELY? YES, GIVE ME A LITTLE MORE OF THAT BAD SHIT
NO, I OUGHTA FUCKING SEND THIS EMAIL SO WE CAN GET DOWN TO BUSINESS ALREADY,
FRICK
My monitor keep flicking out. That could be really irritating. It is. Should
I squelch my anger? No, .. but I choose to remember the Goddess so I won't
have to get angry anymore
(just flicked out again, short in the wire)
oh yeah, now I remember why.
I was going to do that so I could teach you guys something new. Yes, even you
mystress. You don't wanna take lessons (they're not lessons) from a wanker
like me. If you met me in real life it'd be obvious (it's obvious now) that
I'm not fully mastered.
I'M NOT!!!
but you all!!! Gosh, You GOTTA HAVE A BIT OF THIS IT'S REAL
You'll never get it until I chill out and stop acting so immature.
But it seems like the only way to catalyse a steed is to get on your nerves
FIRST, then show you why I act that way. THEN you can go OOOH, this guy is
for REAL.. then I finally feel like I've taught something to you.
Goddess is telling me to stay here. I can help you. Teach you about things
you never knew.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo
:(
see.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO!!!!!!!
I'm NOT!!!
that's the whole poinnnt... guess I'm not giving you a very good example. But
I don't know what else do to. I just wanna relax and type. Straight. I feel
fine about everything. I'm just DYING to share this with you, just dying ;)
really I Am..
you guys are great.
Guess I better get offline and do it, I know that.
But you won't find a group of real people gathered like this, constantly, all
the time, that is only possible on the internet. So I stick around. I'll star
t chilling out once I get at LEAST THE SMALLEST HINT THAT YOU CAN CONCIEVE
THIS
then I'll be cool. I guess. Because then I'll feel that I transferred the
information to you and I'll just feel better all around.
Ooooh, how come you can't just tune in ..
Those who are most awakened on this list, are much more awakened (well, more,
maybe not immensely more, but significantly) than I am.
But I am fully aware of that.
Yet paradoxically.
I watch you all fumble around in the darkness.
It's strange.. no, it isn't.. strange. that's not the write word. YOU SEE I
WOULD CALL IT STRANGE IF I WAS FROM HERE BUT I'M NOT, BUT I ACT LIKE I AM I'M
USED TO PRETENDING THAT I'M FROM HERE SO I SAY "HOW STRANGE" WHEN I DON'T
THINK IT'S STRANGE AT ALL, ONLY YOU DO
FUCK Matt Groening
EVEN IF HE MAKES ME LAUGH
THAT is what I call a Paradox
I would NEVER send an email like this to Alloya. Ooooh.. I'm misbehaving.
shhhhhhhhh..
Funny thing. I know things even she does not. DAMNIT WHERE IS MY FAMILY,
GHAAAAAAAA (my family is all around me!!!!!!)
I have to wake them up by waking myself up.
Until I quit acting thi..
no.. not this .. way
ooooooooo..
it's hard to be a faerie. NO I'M NOT A FAERIE , SHEEEESH That's just a title,
it doesn't happen, it's not even in your imagination!! TITLES are like DEATH,
no worse than death, TITLES are a manfest of ignorance. I bet that's what
they are!!
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