To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/02/19 01:13
Subject: Re: SV: chat today Re: [K-list] A little bit about me
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2002/02/19 01:13, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 12:21 PM 17/02/02, Mandra Azária wrote:
> Mystress wrote:
> The thing is... Kundalini requires surrender... not fighting. Fighting
> makes it hard.
> I believe this. I learned to do that with my emotional problems (from
> Krishnamurti actually), but I don't know how to do it with my bodily
> problems. Okej, you said that there is not such thing as
> bodily/emotionally, and I agree again. But it's easy in a way to
> surrender to a feeling, but not, for ex, to high bloodpreassure.
High blood pressure is usually caused by stress, and the stress is
caused by your resistance to the process.
> How do I go in to that and surrender? I simply don't know? I have try to
> surrender to my cramps in my legs, by trying to "breathing me trough it",
> but I haven't really succeded. It's hard to concentrate on my breathing
> for 4 hours.
Susan read my mind, only better about the possibility that this is
partly a physical problem caused by nutritional deficiencies. Calcium
shortage, yes... I also find a lot of vegetarians get leg pains and cramps.
The body needs meat. I cooked and ate a steak while I worked on you.
> Okey, fears, but I don't feel the fear, mostly I feel very angry when
> I'm cramping. (I di know that fear could be under that.)
Of course it is. You know it. Find it, face it, surrender it.
> Pretty typical K. symptom, the heat. Karma burning off. When it is that
> intense for that long, sometimes it is because the hot red snake has
> gotten
> stronger than the cool blue snake... thinking cool blue thoughts of
> icebergs, mountain lakes, wearing blue and imagining a blue aura sometimes
> helps. Mint ice tea...
> Can you tell me more about this blue and red snake?
<shrug> Kundalini is two serpents in a double helix like the cadeucus.
Ida and Pingala. If one gets ahead of the other then you get the symptoms
of heat and high metabolism. Gopi Krishna had the same problem and wrote
several books about it, that reflect how it traumatised him. I usually do
not recommend his books, but for you they might be of value. At one point
he was eating something like 40lbs of sugar cane every day.
> You cannot turn it off, but if you stop trying to control it, it gets
> its job done faster and smoother.
> Okey, but I have no feelings of trying to control it. But maybe I do
> unconscious?
Lying there angry all night, is not trying to control? Of course it
is. Your whole K. history is the story of your trying to control it with
medications, meditation and a lot of anger. Kundalini is God-Goddess,
cosmic consciousnes... and going to war with that, is bound to get your ass
kicked.
> I would like to thanks you and Jason G for the healing.
> I feel a little bit lazy (like jello) and not so tense today.
Good! I am glad to hear it. We did all that could be done, for you...
for where you are at. I think spending more time at my websites would serve
you better than asking me all your questions. I can tell you about
surrender, but nobody but you can choose to actually do it.
I had to give Jason a scrub the day after, because some of your stuff
was lingering in him, giving him a fuzzy brain. Which means, that you did
not really let it go. Just part of his learning curve... My own vibe is
higher and cleaned itself.
> You didn't manage to make me sleep. ;-)
I can only do it, if you let me.. and you resisted.
>I will tell you a little bit about this "sleeping-thing". Now (before I
>could cramp anytime) I only cramps in my legs when I'm tryinf to sleep,
>that is, when I go to bed. I also often feel many things during this
>cramping-period, emotional stuff.
Sure.. it is coming up to be released.
>This morning the feeling that came up was concentrated around
>"controlling". I control to much. So maybee you are right.
Of course.
> When I do some healing or someoneelse do it on me, the
> "cramping-period" usually become longer. That happened this morning to.
> It took me 6½ hour to fall asleep. But that is okej. ;-)
Of course.. the cramping-kriyas are the processing. Usually people
continue to process for three days to a week after I work with them, like I
did with you.
> I will write some more later and tell you if anythingelse will occur.
I think I have done all I can for you, but I am sure the list is very
interested in your process. Feel free to share your experiences. Thanks for
posting.
Blessings...
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