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Recieved: 2002/02/17 13:21
Subject: SV: chat today Re: [K-list] A little bit about me
From: Mandra Azária

  Mystress wrote:
 The thing is... Kundalini requires surrender... not fighting. Fighting
  makes it hard.
  I believe this. I learned to do that with my emotional problems (from Krishnamurti actually), but I don't know how to do it with my bodily problems. Okej, you said that there is not such thing as bodily/emotionally, and I agree again. But it's easy in a way to surrender to a feeling, but not, for ex, to high bloodpreassure. How do I go in to that and surrender? I simply don't know? I have try to surrender to my cramps in my legs, by trying to "breathing me trough it", but I haven't really succeded. It's hard to concentrate on my breathing for 4 hours.

  .

 There is nothing that is only spiritual or emotional. The body and
  spirit are one, the body and emotions are one.
  I agree, as I said, but I still not know "how to" with the bodily thing.

  Yup, that makes perfect sense. Leg problems are all about fears of
  moving forward in life, and K. does much of its work at night.
  I have understood that, but it's nice that you can confirm it. ;-)
  Okey, fears, but I don't feel the fear, mostly I feel very angry when I'm cramping. (I di know that fear could be under that.)

  >can't run (or ride a horse or dance wich I love to do).

 You will, again I feel.
  I hope so. ;-)
  Pretty typical K. symptom, the heat. Karma burning off. When it is that
  intense for that long, sometimes it is because the hot red snake has gotten
  stronger than the cool blue snake... thinking cool blue thoughts of
  icebergs, mountain lakes, wearing blue and imagining a blue aura sometimes
  helps. Mint ice tea...
  Can you tell me more about this blue and red snake?

  You cannot turn it off, but if you stop trying to control it, it gets
  its job done faster and smoother.
  Okey, but I have no feelings of trying to control it. But maybe I do unconscious?

  I would like to thanks you and Jason G for the healing.
  I feel a little bit lazy (like jello) and not so tense today.

  You didn't manage to make me sleep. ;-) I will tell you a little bit about this "sleeping-thing". Now (before I could cramp anytime) I only cramps in my legs when I'm tryinf to sleep, that is, when I go to bed. I also often feel many things during this cramping-period, emotional stuff. This morning the feeling that came up was concentrated around "controlling". I control to much. So maybee you are right.
  Normally it takes 3-4 hour of cramping before I fall asleep, more often 4 hours than 3 (it has been worse, up about 12 hours BEFORE sleep, then I need to slepp also;-) ).
  When I do some healing or someoneelse do it on me, the "cramping-period" usually become longer. That happened this morning to. It took me 6½ hour to fall asleep. But that is okej. ;-)

  I will write some more later and tell you if anythingelse will occur.

  B&B
  Mandra

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