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Recieved: 2002/02/02 07:24
Subject: Re: [K-list] Fw: Can anyone relate?
From: Charles Portugal
On 2002/02/02 07:24, Charles Portugal posted thus to the K-list:
Why does the asbsence of right or wrong and good or bad depress you?
Charles
Original Message -----
> From: "isis robins-shaw" <r.isisATnospamangelfire.com>
> To: <percyvalATnospamrcn.com>
> Sent: Friday, February 01, 2002 4:51 PM
> Subject: Can anyone relate?
> > For the last two years or so I have had a range of symptoms that have
left
> me feeling exhausted and sometimes quite depressed.
> > I can not mark the exact time my Kundalini started to rise. I started
> clearing out my internal cupboards when I was 13 and did 6 years of
intense
> work identifying, processing and releasing the patterns and defenses I had
> acquired during my childhood. For three of those years I felt intense pain
> and grief. I found however, that by having opened those channels I was
also
> able to feel great periods of joy and my experience of life was broadened.
> > For as long as I can remember I have had access to my unconscious mind
and
> have recieved messages from different spirit entities including "The
> council" which told me several times during my childhood that I was
> "preparing." I have also been able to decipher dreams easily, different
> archetypes I am embodying at any given moment, and have remembered and
felt
> > countless past and possibly future lives.
> > Being young and aware was quite a challenge. I found that I was
constantly
> encountering others projections and it was tiring to make it past their
> limited perspectives. I started college when I was 16 after a year at home
> where I ran a publication.
> > My life has been very condensed. The experiences people often have in
> their 30's or 40's I was having at 13. I made friends and dated people
over
> 20 years my seniors and outgrew them quickly. Of course this made me feel
> very lonely.
> > Around 19 I became very focused in my third eye and had many "journeys"
> through the cosmos. Unlike my friends I had never taken drugs and didn't
> need them to see the universal picture. It scared me to "see" things that
> were happening in other dimensions and not know how to work with them. I
> would look at someone and see their different lives happening all at once.
I
> > realized in a very tangible way that the sole point of living was for
the
> experience and the absence of right/wrong, good/bad depressed me. I also
had
> > various "enlightenment" experiences and one so beautiful I was
overwhelmed
> with joy and couldn't stop crying. It was at that time that I was
introduced
> > to two terms: "Indigo child" and "Kundalini"
> > I am now almost 22 and for the last 2 years I have been pretty
miserable.
> With the exception of having met my soul partner, who is now my husband
and
> > also having Kundalini symptoms, I have been constantly bombarded by past
> life emotions and memories, core issues at their most elemental level,
> physical pain, spaciness, vibrating "kriyas", spontaneous movements and
> sounds, itching, exhaustion, and many more symptoms. To make matters worse
I
> have not had access to the joy and awarness of beauty that has rewarded me
> in my pursuit of self awareness. I feel as if I am trapped in the womb
> again, but this time with my ego in tact.
> > I know this is a temporary experience but after two years of feeling
weird
> and even more isolated then I did previously I am loking for others who
> share some aspect of my experience.
> > Look forward to hearing from you,
> > Isis
>
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