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Recieved: 2002/02/01 17:54
Subject: [K-list] Fw: Can anyone relate?
From: percyval
On 2002/02/01 17:54, percyval posted thus to the K-list:
[this post is forwarded from a new list-member, Isis... please address any
off-list responses to her at: r.isisATnospamangelfire.com -percyval]
----- Original Message -----
From: "isis robins-shaw" <r.isisATnospamangelfire.com>
To: <percyvalATnospamrcn.com>
Sent: Friday, February 01, 2002 4:51 PM
Subject: Can anyone relate?
> For the last two years or so I have had a range of symptoms that have left
me feeling exhausted and sometimes quite depressed.
> I can not mark the exact time my Kundalini started to rise. I started
clearing out my internal cupboards when I was 13 and did 6 years of intense
work identifying, processing and releasing the patterns and defenses I had
acquired during my childhood. For three of those years I felt intense pain
and grief. I found however, that by having opened those channels I was also
able to feel great periods of joy and my experience of life was broadened.
> For as long as I can remember I have had access to my unconscious mind and
have recieved messages from different spirit entities including "The
council" which told me several times during my childhood that I was
"preparing." I have also been able to decipher dreams easily, different
archetypes I am embodying at any given moment, and have remembered and felt
> countless past and possibly future lives.
> Being young and aware was quite a challenge. I found that I was constantly
encountering others projections and it was tiring to make it past their
limited perspectives. I started college when I was 16 after a year at home
where I ran a publication.
> My life has been very condensed. The experiences people often have in
their 30's or 40's I was having at 13. I made friends and dated people over
20 years my seniors and outgrew them quickly. Of course this made me feel
very lonely.
> Around 19 I became very focused in my third eye and had many "journeys"
through the cosmos. Unlike my friends I had never taken drugs and didn't
need them to see the universal picture. It scared me to "see" things that
were happening in other dimensions and not know how to work with them. I
would look at someone and see their different lives happening all at once. I
> realized in a very tangible way that the sole point of living was for the
experience and the absence of right/wrong, good/bad depressed me. I also had
> various "enlightenment" experiences and one so beautiful I was overwhelmed
with joy and couldn't stop crying. It was at that time that I was introduced
> to two terms: "Indigo child" and "Kundalini"
> I am now almost 22 and for the last 2 years I have been pretty miserable.
With the exception of having met my soul partner, who is now my husband and
> also having Kundalini symptoms, I have been constantly bombarded by past
life emotions and memories, core issues at their most elemental level,
physical pain, spaciness, vibrating "kriyas", spontaneous movements and
sounds, itching, exhaustion, and many more symptoms. To make matters worse I
have not had access to the joy and awarness of beauty that has rewarded me
in my pursuit of self awareness. I feel as if I am trapped in the womb
again, but this time with my ego in tact.
> I know this is a temporary experience but after two years of feeling weird
and even more isolated then I did previously I am loking for others who
share some aspect of my experience.
> Look forward to hearing from you,
> Isis
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