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Recieved: 2002/01/22 15:35
Subject: [K-list] kundalini question
From: Sheri P.
On 2002/01/22 15:35, Sheri P. posted thus to the K-list:
I am writing as a very new member. Please forward this to the list for me :)
I am writing because I have been experiencing some things that I am
thinking could be Kundalini related. If people would read these snippets
of my writings from the past few months and let me know if this sounds
related to kundalini I would appreciate it. Please also tell me if you
think it is something else. The experiences are described below. Or I
imagine maybe some things are kundalini related and others not? Anyway, I
would appreciate *so* much getting some feedback.
One thing that is not mentioned in these messages below is the tingly
electric sort of sensation that I get in my body when I hear a spiritual
truth. This had increased to the point of happening about 10-20 times a
day in October and has now faded again.
Sorry for the epic length of this...
Thank you!
Sheri
>Part of the meditation asked us to imagine that we could not feel our
>physical bodies and instead to just feel the energy and waves that make
>our physical selves. I was able to do this and the feeling was so
>incredible. I literally could not feel my body, but instead felt like
>this cloud of waves and energy. It was as if I was feeling my energy
>body. It was a very peaceful feeling. In the places where one part of my
>body touched another part I didn't feel the pressure of them touching, I
>felt the energy adding together and making this denser area of energy.
****
>You mentioned you method of putting "yes" and "no" on either side of your
>head in order to get an answer and it reminded me of something that I felt
>when doing reiki on myself yesterday. I had a headache and was trying
>every possible combination of hand positions on my head to allow it to go
>away. And at one point I could feel the energy in my head swinging back
>and forth from left to right. It was such an amazing sensation. I was so
>thrilled to be beginning to feel the energy it concrete ways. he energy
>is real and literal. It *is* there, I just have to tune into it!
>
>Early this morning Colin was having trouble sleeping because he was
>congested and coughing. I told him I was going to use reiki (if he didn't
>mind) to see if it helped him to feel better. I did my little prayer and
>stated by just laying my hand on his chest and I could just feel the
>energy pouring in. It was like he was so open and so *needed* it that it
>could just FLOW! I definitely feel like an excited little girl who has
>this whole new world open to her. I hope my enthusiasm is not making any
>of you crazy, LOL!
*****
>I have had the most amazing week. Well, from my perspective *now* it has
>been amazing. Five days ago I was not a happy camper. Last Wednesday I
>was playing tag with my youngest son and I fell hard on my butt and left
>arm. I was shook up for a bit and had a sore wrist, but I thought I was
>fine. That same night Mike was on his way home from work and he hit a
>deer. He was fine, but it basically forced us to get a new (used) car as
>the one he was driving was so old and beat up that it was not worth
>fixing. We knew that we needed the new car and even though money is tight
>we made the decision to look without even a second thought. There was
>really no other choice, we needed the second car.
>
>The next morning (Thursday) I was getting ready for a gathering of
>homeschoolers that was to take place that night at my house. I was
>throwing something out in the bathroom and I put my back out. It didn't
>make sense to me then, but now I know it was probably from the fall on
>Wednesday. I hadn't had such a bad back problem in more than 7 years. I
>was basically immobile. Luckily Becky was there that afternoon to help me
>and Mike came home from work early, so I managed.
>
>That night the homeschoolers came and several of them recommended this
>chiropractor, David Lester. I replied that I was sure I would be fine
>soon and I really couldn't afford to go and blah, blah, blah. A fellow
>homeschooler did Reiki on me and it helped a bit, but not for long. By
>Sunnday I was in agony and tired of being in pain. I decided I needed to
>go to the chiropractor. So, I made the decision to call on Monday morning.
>
>During the four days I slowly came to the realization that these tow
>events were a sign for me. Our car got effectively totaled on Wednesday
>and we do whatever is necessary to replace it without a second thought and
>without guilt. I injure my back on Wednesday and I guilt myself into not
>getting care because of money. How screwed up is that??? So, this was
>the message for me. Take care of yourself too!!!! This might seem
>trivial now, but it was this *HUGE* "click" moment for me.
>
>So, on Monday I had my first visit with the network chiropractor. I knew
>a little about what to expect from a friend who had gone, but it was even
>more than I thought it would be. With a series of touches, (very light
>touches) and having me breathe into certain parts of my body, he was able
>to release *so* much tension from my body. I literally felt tension
>melting out of my body within seconds. SO I was able to walk out of there
>about 85% pain free after that first day. I could walk comfortably for
>the first time in days.
>
>I went back on Tuesday and had the coolest experience. He was adjusting
>me (again with very light touch and slight pressure) and my right arm
>began to twitch uncontrollably. This went on for a few minutes when I
>started to giggle and that led to the *uncontrollable* emotional
>release. I was laughing so hard my whole body was shaking and I had tears
>in my eyes. It was so freeing. That went on for a minute or two while he
>just told me to keep on letting go and said how good this release
>was. Later that same session my left leg just literally twitched itself
>back into the "correct" position, again from just very light touches. I
>left that day feeling *so* much better and so filled with joy and bubbling
>with happiness. I couldn't wait to tell everyone about this amazing
>experience. That joy has stayed with me to some degree since then.
>
>I went back again Wednesday morning because I woke up with my back a bit
>stiff again. This time after about 20 minutes of "adjusting" (again just
>light touches) my body started to just release and adjust itself. I don't
>know how to put it into words. I was twitching al over the place, my hips
>were twitching from side to side, I was rocking on my belly and breathing
>*very deeply*. Ths was all happening involuntarily, though I had the
>sense I cold stop it if I wanted to. The doc was working on other people
>and came back to see how I was doing and just giggled. He said "Sheri you
>look like a fish!!!" He said it with such a sense of excitement and
>wonder of what my body was capable of doing for itself. I tell you I have
>such a sense of gratitude for the gift he has given me.
>
>I've since learned that this twitching and "wave" action that happened in
>my third visit usually takes 1-3 months to see, but I guess I was just
>ready to release. At one point I breathed so deeply that I could feel it
>literally in my tail bone and it was such a glorious feeling. I realized
>then that I had somehow blocked off that part of my body. I hadn't
>breathed that deeply in many, many years I don't know what I was (am)
>holding there, but I have this sense that when it finally, completely
>releases it will be sobbing instead of giggling, but I am looking forward
>to it no matter what it is.
>
>I feel like my words are not doing this justice, but I have to say I am so
>profoundly thankful for the gift these two events have given me this past
>week. I intend to continue going for network chiropractic *forever* or
>until I feel the need to move on to something else. So much of my
>spiritual work these few months has referred to feeling the energy flowing
>and being connected to the source etc. Now I feel like I am closer than I
>have ever been to letting it all flow. The chiropractic open blockages
>that had been in place for a long, long time.
*****
>Anyway, my point was, that you reinforced my understanding of why it is
>not best to just rush into these releases, but to honor my body's level of
>readiness. I had another release yesterday that I am still
>processing. I was laying there about 30 minutes into my appointment
>and he was working on me periodically. At one point I started to feel
>sad and as he approached me again I started to cry a little. (During the
>work I am laying face down on a table) He came up and placed a finger
>from each hand on my back and I immediately started to sob and shake. It
>was such a powerful release and he's such an empathic healer. After a few
>minutes I was fine. On the way home I started to shake (like after
>intense physical exertion) and then got a bit of a fever for an hour or
>two. I am so glad I started this work. My rational side wonders how the
>hell it works, but the rest of me is enjoying the ride tremendously.
>Anyway since that release I've felt both a bit cloudy and much more clear,
>if that makes sense. And I'll just suddenly giggle for no reason. Maybe
>I am just going insane (they're coming to take me away he hee)
*****
>I am going for another network appointment in a couple of hours. I've
>felt something brewing all weekend since my last release. I think this is
>going to be a big release day. It just feels like something needs to pop
>out. I feel really happy and connected, but also like there is this
>nagging *something* just barely below the surface. It feels sort of odd.
*****
>I also wanted to share an experience I had last night that I believe gave
>me a message about what I am holding in my back[my original injury is
>healed, but I have this "new" knot in my back that is painful and we've
>been working to release it]. I recently purchased a CD called SOMA: An
>Experience in Psychoacoustic Healing [I highly recommend it]. It is
>designed for deep relaxation and encouraging alpha and theta brain
>waves. Some people report it helps them experience altered states of
>consciousness. I just like to use it for relaxation. Anyway, as I began
>to listen to the CD last night I just asked myself a question about why I
>was holding the tension in my back, then I let the idea go. About 15
>minutes later I was in that state people get in just before sleep (I guess
>the alpha or theta wave state). I began to have this vision of big hairy
>spiders, snakes, alligators and other such stuff crawling up my spine, but
>originating *right* from the spot where the knot is now. I was able to
>redirect them off to the right and "out" instead of up, but it didn't seem
>to allow me to release at that point. Anyway, this morning I made the
>connection that those things must represent *fear*. So, that my guess on
>what I am holding there. Am I nuts or what?
*****
>Anyway, I just got back from the chiropractor a few minutes ago. (I found
>out actually that he no longer does network, but instead does something
>called bio geometric integration, but whatever it is, it *works*). I had
>this huge release that I am still trying to process (ARGH! maybe I need
>to just let it go) I started out feeling a little bit sad/hurt, but it
>eventually turned into me feeling *very* angry. If there hadn't been
>other people there I would have screamed and cursed and hit
>people. Literally I would have gone berserk. I had my fists clenched and
>was pounding the arm rests on the table. At one point when David touched
>me I wanted to pound on him.
>
>I lost a sense of time, so I don't know how long this went on, but
>eventually I no longer felt terribly angry, but there was so much
>adrenaline or something going through my body that I was shaking and
>shivering like a leaf and it felt like there was electricity just running
>through my body. It was very powerful. I've never felt anything so intense.
>
>After it subsided and he felt my back he commented on how different it
>felt and all the hard work I had been doing. I sat up and tried to leave,
>but I was dizzy and had to sit for a few minutes and eventually went to
>lie down in another room. I still feel very spaced out. The strange
>thing is I cannot necessarily tell a difference in the knot that was in my
>back and now I have a kink in my upper back between my shoulder blades. I
>guess things are just going to move all over and I am going to go nuts
>before I get better. I really did wonder for a few minutes there if I was
>going to go over the edge to never never land.
>
>Right now I am feeling a little like I had this release but didn't get to
>process it. I wish there was time after an appointment to sit and work
>through this. Maybe that's just a function of my dependance on the
>intellectual instead of trusting the process. Do you get time to process
>verbally with your chiro?
>
>Anyway, I think I am going to go lie down and juts let this all sink
>in. That's for letting me vent. It has been such a comfort knowing there
>is someone I respect going through similar processes.
*****
(written before the previous intense experience)
>Based on a friend's experiences with another network chiropractor in
>Wisconsin, I knew to expect more than physical healing, but I didn't
>realize the extent of the changes I would feel in such a short time. I
>have been doing a lot of self work in the past few months and your help
>has brought everything together for me. I feel so different than I did a
>month ago. I don't know if words can explain the changes I have
>experienced. I cannot tell you how good this feels. I have been a better
>wife, mother, and human being these past few weeks and it all feels so
>good. It is indescribable. In fact, I hesitate to speak about it for fear
>of people thinking I've gone looney. I have not smiled this much in
>years. I can feel my heart singing. I feel so appreciative for each and
>every thing in my life. Words do not do it justice. I have come close to
>tears so many times in the last few days just out of sheer joy over little
>things. It is like I have been filled up with all the positive energy and
>love in the universe and I can access it whenever I need to. You probably
>are going to think I am *crazy*!!!
Okay, I'l spare you the rest. Any feedback would be great!!!
May Peace Prevail On Earth
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