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Recieved: 2002/01/22 15:04
Subject: [K-list] meaning
From: daniel tal

A sticking point for someone like myself who is a skeptic as a much as a
believer.
The thought is a depressing one that if you hold on to can do strange subtle
thing to the psyche and influence one´s motivation to get up in the morning.

If life is meaningless, then what…?
It waits until we ascribe meaning to it… by creating the meaning with
intention…

This is a contradiction.

Because then we are creating from either desire, pain, issues and for the
few, love.
But still, it has no meaning – right. What is the point.

We talk about Karma, getting tangled up in its web, passing from life to
life, living (parallalel?) lives I do not remember for acts that have no
meaning, except in someways they must have meaning if you belive in Karma,
which means that life is meaningful because the Universe pays in turn for
what we create, now and latter (what ever latter is)

I hope someone is understanding this because re-reading it points towards a
paradox and my own dilema at being trapped on the more meaningless sensation
of no meaning : )

This is not meant as a criticism of Susan´s or Steve´s posts. Heart felt
and full of truth, speaking about creating a life through faith and
self-love.

But for me, I am the same person before K, the same after K, living in a
septic environment and trapped room (that I even dreamed about as literal as
it gets) – I live a life with some magic, but less love, minimal trauma
(unless you consider getting up for work trauma – to me it can be soothing
at times) but ultimately a life without meaning because I have created it
thus and I have no real clue or is it motivation to crrate one that is
meaningful.

You who have read my posts over the years on this list know the feeling, the
sense of a person you get on the other end of this wire, digital letter
composed of 01´s that make meaning.

But inside, on this path, this mental place I wonder what it will take to
know the difference between how to live life and then living it.

Maybe my name should be Eeyore
(Winnie the Poo)

Dan

ps - I'm not really that depressing a person : )
just still trying to figure it out...

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