To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/01/22 00:32
Subject: [K-list] Re: suicide stuff
From: godchild_777
On 2002/01/22 00:32, godchild_777 posted thus to the K-list:
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., "marraskuu1978" <marraskuu1978ATnospamy...>
wrote:
> I often dream of such an escape. The world of work is very evil and
> often I feel there is no meaning in it all. ...I've been reading a
lot
> of the essays on www.primitivism.com
> We live in a society where we grow food in order to lock it up and
> make you work 40 hours a week to earn money to buy it back. I need
> money to survive, yet my soul does not feel fulfilled from the work
I
> do. My most productive hours of the day, 5 days a week, are given
> away. Perhaps I just haven't found what I want to do in life yet.
>
> life is depressing me. I have so many hobbies and talents and
loves,
> yet none of them convert into real paying jobs. Am I doomed to live
> the condition of adulthood this way?
Hey,
I agree with you 100 percent. All except the depression--I am never
depressed. If you 1) take care of the physical part of you, and 2)
feed your spirit, and 3) figure out your purpose in life, you won't
have to worry much about being depressed.
I haven't been depressed in years--not even when I found myself
almost
flunking out of college; not after I finally made it out after 6
years, only to get fired from my first job, and drifted in and out of
temp jobs for nearly *two years*; not after my girlfriend of a year
dumped me, calling me a "loser." I wasn't depressed even at 27 years
old, after being out of work for 10 months, without a meaningful
relationship for four years, with mounting debt, and living at home
with exasperated (and exasperating) parents in a dead suburban
village. Nor recently, when it seemed the world was caving in on me;
when my job was squeezing the life out of me, when I was forced to
live with three (occasionally four) other people in a tiny efficiency
apartment--two of whom were drug-abusing alcoholic thieves who stole
my clothing, money, and even drove my *car* without permission! All
that, with the threat of imminent eviction hanging over my head, not
to mention the threat of being fired because of personal challenges.
I'm extremely frustrated--MAD!--but never *depressed*, about my
extremely challenging attention deficit disorder, which turns what
ought to be an enjoyable life and job into a heavy burden, and what
ought to be easy tasks into huge ordeals. However, I'm working on
that, and experimenting with behavior modification and nutritional
solutions, which seem to be slowly taking effect.
But yes, the world of work, in general, *is* evil. Ever read the
second chapter of Genesis, where mankind sins and is punished (and
the
ground *cursed*) ... for his disobedience? Work--that is, the
unfulfilling drudgery sort of work--is part of that curse.
However, that door swings both ways. The same Bible promises
blessings
for those who seek after Yah, the LORD.
That touches upon the whole question of purpose. It's no wonder that
people who are taught they were created by purposeless random forces
become depressed and suicidal. *DUH*! The thought that you exist for
no reason--and all this suffering is going on for no reason--is not
only depressing, but enough to drive you insane if you think about it
enough.
Fortunately, that idea is a lie. We all have a purpose. Real peace
and
happiness lies in fulfilling that purpose--in doing what you were
*created* to do. Which, of course, requires that you first realize
that you *were* created, and that you get in contact with your
Creator.
I believe that what I am "doing" presently (working as a newspaper
editor) is not my ultimate purpose in life, but it is an important
preparation. That's what makes it bearable. Not that it's a bad
job; a lot of unemployed journalists and soon-to-be-grads from
prestigious
schools would kill for this job. But it's just not my passion. I have
my sights set on bigger and better things. But the connections I'm
making, the experience I'm gaining, the forging of character, the
struggle against some huge handicaps, and the honing of my skills,
are
all things I will be able to use in the future when I am able to
break
away and do my own thing. (And my "own thing," as far as I can tell
right now, will include aspects of health and nutrition education,
nutrition products, publishing, art and music--all aimed at serving
and sharing knowledge with others, in the name of the Most High
through his Son.)
I figure that a valuable resource will be all the *people* I am being
exposed to at present: I have been strategically placed (as the
result
of an awesome answer to a prayer) in the midst of some very
interesting--and in some cases highly visible and
influential--persons.
Financial freedom is possible. By working for someone else you're
helping to make *them* financially free; why not do it for yourself?
Tip for for those seeking financial freedom: Consider 1) simplifying
life and becoming more self-sufficient; 2) going into business for
yourself. Network marketing, especially, is a *potentially* powerful
vehicle for such financial freedom--provided that the "buyer beware"
and make wise choices.
Okay, enough. I'm still supposed to be working.
*****P*E*A*C*E**L*O*V*E**&**B*L*E*S*S*I*N*G*S*****
David H
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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