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Recieved: 2002/01/07 20:30
Subject: Re: [K-list] Celibacy and K
From: Arif Sani
On 2002/01/07 20:30, Arif Sani posted thus to the K-list:
This is the very subject that's been in my mind since starting to search
some justification of my sexual activities :)
I really appreciate your honest sharing of your experience, Magdalene.
So what you're saying is stay normal and jut-do-it until all passion dried
up?
I always have difficulties to restrain that particular desire - sex. Yet,
most of the eastern literature on spiritual path around me suggest celibacy
as the definite road to take (except the kama sutra & tantra yoga). Yet
people around me considers it a taboo to talk about spiritual & sexual
experiences in conjunction (I live in south east asia, where hypocritical
thoughts still dominates large)
Can anybody tell me what's wrong with sex if you're looking toward
enlightement? and what does it has to do with 'wasting energy'?
love,
arif
----- Original Message -----
From: Magdalene Meretrix <magdaleneATnospammagdalenemeretrix.com>
To: <K-list >
Sent: Tuesday, January 08, 2002 3:52 AM
Subject: Re: [K-list] Celibacy and K
> At 09:04 AM 1/7/02 -0600, Jennifer wrote:
> >Any thoughts on the expression of K-energy and celibacy? I'm
intentionally
> >leaving the question open-ended ... not sure what I'm looking to hear,
> >understand, acknowledge, etc...
>
> My own experience -- I have always been a very sexual person. After my
> experience with my kundalini rising ten years ago, I came to realize that
I
> am called to be a Sacred Whore and a sexual healer. I have a tattoo on my
> upper spine of an image that came to me in a vision. Getting tattooed was
> my way of dedicating myself to this path. I walked the path until I fell
> ill and even then I continued to work for quite a while before I had to
> quit. When I quit working one-on-one with people, I immediately started
> writing about sex and sexual healing. More about sex up until now but
> gradually moving more towards writing about Sacred Whoredom and sexual
> healing.
>
> When I quit working, I quit expressing my sexuality to multiple people
> every day and since then, my sexual desire has dried up. I was still very
> highly sexually charged, even when I was beginning to be ill and filled
> with pain, so long as I was still offering myself and my services to
> others. I don't know if the illness removed my desire and I left my work
> because I sensed I was going to lose desire or if leaving my work caused
my
> sexual energies to implode. I may never know and that's okay.
>
> Now I am still quite young and at the moment have no desire for sex at
all.
> This is rough on my partner, I'm sure, though nothing has been said about
> the lack of sex yet. I would offer it gladly, even though I'm not aroused,
> if it were requested, but so far it's always being requested late at night
> as I lay in bed exhausted, drifting off to sleep. Last night, I said to
ask
> me earlier in the day, when I'm not so exhausted. I don't mind providing
> sexual release, but I just can't do it when I'm drained and exhausted.
>
> Why is it that our culture seems to equate bedtime with sex time for
> couples? I've read surveys and studies that indicate that most people
think
> having sex at noon is far too decadent and most couples have sex right
> before they sleep. In my mind, that's one of the most difficult times to
> have sex. Why are people having sex when they're exhauted? Why aren't
> people interrupting their daily schedule to have sex when they're fresh
and
> energetic? Perhaps it's just one more relic of our culture's overall fear
> of sex. *sigh* Western culture needs so much sexual healing!
>
> I don't know if any of this is what you wanted to hear, but it is my own
> experience and I share it with you. I do believe that eventually my sexual
> desire will return. I'm being patient and letting it decide it's own time
> to reappear. The only constant is change.
>
> Agape,
> M
>
> --
> http://www.magdalenemeretrix.com
>
> "Aim above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something."
> -- Henry David Thoreau
>
>
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